And then today I have ALL the energy
The thing about mood and well being is things can change so slowly over time you might actually forget how it feels to feel good if you are very slowly sliding into depression. I took that extra quarter of Celexa yesterday to help my back, and the intense muscle tightness went away almost immediately (and revealed that I still have a weird crick in my neck and some pain in my shoulder and midback, but it's bearable without the crazy tightness.) The thing I wasn't expecting is that I would wake up with energy and feeling positive. I can do all my stuffs! I did some class planning for the rest of the semester that I had been putting off for about three weeks (and feeling very dread-ish about), cleaned up the kitchen, got some things ready for Goodwill, and worked on a story, and it's only 2:30.
I also got up the nerve to ask for a big favor from three old professors. I'd become so sure I suck, I didn't have the gumption until today, and now it's hard to imagine why I was being so hard on myself. I drafted the emails three and sent them off to see what becomes of them.
I don't like the idea that I need extraneous chemicals to not be depressed, but maybe I really do. And what does one do with that?
I also got up the nerve to ask for a big favor from three old professors. I'd become so sure I suck, I didn't have the gumption until today, and now it's hard to imagine why I was being so hard on myself. I drafted the emails three and sent them off to see what becomes of them.
I don't like the idea that I need extraneous chemicals to not be depressed, but maybe I really do. And what does one do with that?