so its kind of been all over the place lately. richie and i have for the past week or so entertaining the idea of being a couple. at first it was lets think about it, then yes, then lets think about it again, to put it as simply as humanly possible because honestly i'm sick of talking about it. we're gonna be together, for sure, eventually. but we' ( Read more... )

been doing a lot of thinking lately. and it may involve something that seems a bit out of character for me. but i've always been one for questioning everything and changing your ideals and ways of life when something comes along to prove it makes sense to do so. i know i'm not making sense enough for anyone to know what i'm talking about and thats ( Read more... )

why do people, once they find a boyfriend/girlfriend all the sudden become so infatuated that they'll do anything to see them, even whore up their oldest friends?!!! its like hmm i saw that person yesterday, and the day before, and i haven't seen you for more than an hour or so at a time in weeks, but the significant other always wins out. i know i ( Read more... )

first to update on the things going on. then to bring you the 2 epiphanies i had this week ( Read more... )

i keep going through it over and over again in my head. i know what i have to say but i don't know how to go about it. and i'm really scared! its so strange to find myself in this position. i've been single for a while, and i like it, i like things how they've been. i like not having restrictions, or having to worry about what the other person ( Read more... )

how can i be so happy yet so confused and depressed at the same time? back and forth, every day on this rollercoaster. its really getting to me. so many things. i'm happy to be where i am, in my new house, it feels good. and eric makes me feel good, i love him so much. but there's so much shit right now, so much drama, so many decisions, big and ( Read more... )

life has been a bit weird lately, a series of extreme highs and lows. my grandmother died on the 17th, my stepfather's mother. she had been sick for a long time, in a nursing home since around thanksgiving. it's sad but its also a relief, because her health had been deteriorating, she hardly knew what was going on around her anymore, she wasn't ( Read more... )

my apologies to everyone who had to read of this unpleasantness thats been going on for the past few days. if it were up to me, those things would have been said face to face, but i was unable to say anything directly to bill because he wouldn't answer my calls, and the person trying to say things to me won't say them to my face so apparently this ( Read more... )

so all week i've been calling, leaving messages for bill at the apartment, and he never calls back, i'm sure because he knows why i'm calling, and he doesn't want to talk to me because he knows i have a new boyfriend, and doesn't want to face that. today i called and got some guy named dave that i don't even know, and left a message with him, bill ( Read more... )

i do my best thinking when i'm driving, alone. i guess i just kinda zone out and every thought possible comes through my brain. the problem is, usually by the time i get home i forget what it was i was thinking about ( Read more... )