basically, i hate people lately. i hate how all the wrong people are nice to me and all the people i actually need arent. i hate cancelled plans, i hate staying home on friday nights, i hate how much ive changed, and i hate how much i havent. i hate how hard it is for me to deal with my life, i hate how nothing matters to me anymore, i hate how i ( Read more... )

i dont even know where to start.
i feel like my life has changed really drastically sometimes.
other times i feel like i am the same person ive always been, but ive just made way more mistakes.
i think ive learned a lot in the last year, but i wish that i hadnt.
i guess you just cant change things now.

i want to go to sleep but i feel like i cant.
i ( Read more... )

sometimes i really worry myself.
and i feel like my life is just too unpredictable.
because even though i know im better here, sometimes i just miss sleeping in my own bed.

i just started writing about stuff and then i started crying and then i went to wash my face and now i dont want to think about it so i just got rid of everything i wrote ( Read more... )

i don't know why i'm writing in here or what i really have to say thats so important that i have to write about it. everything has been kind of hard lately. i guess i just really feel like im on my own. and, well i guess i kind of am. and sometimes it just hits me that i can't handle it. i can't do everything i'm supposed to. or maybe i just don't ( Read more... )

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sdfhjdfsjjk i want this week to be over please.

tomorrowwww.
school, rehersal for madwoman until 4:30, gymnastics meet bus leaves at 4:45 the actual competition STARTS at 7:30... meaning ill like never get home. and i most likely wont do so well.. haha
fridayyyyy.school, drama 5 performance, and then MAYBE hanging out with muhammad and probably ( Read more... )

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i hate boring weekends ( Read more... )