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To make a post not about drama...
There was larp today, and it was awesome larp. Team AcatsAcatsAcats (now with the return of Sheska!) (we need a new name) finally had a payday, and then got to roleplay around being possibly-horribly-cursed. And used our signs! And all the other stuff that was earlier in the evening that I can't remember very well because it happened longer ago and ( Read more... ) -
A second chance.
Things can never go back to 'the way that they were'. Life is a story with conflicts and resolutions and character development, and returning to a previous point in the story would be unsatisfying. There will be times which echo the earlier times - but they'll be echoes and chimes and notes that are ringing out in their own time, with new ( Read more... ) -
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Still fairly blank in the emotions-sense, but Alex has made me some tea and I am looking forward to seeing people tonight. There shall be sweet potato. I like sweet potato. There shall be chatting and hugs. I like chatting and hugs ( Read more... ) -
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One of the lights in shining into my eyes. I'm stumbled and felt and been led, but in this confusion it feels like what's under my feet might be cracking. If I could just regain my night-vision... But I wobble and duck and weave, but the light is still in my eyes. What do I do now? I was resting, being helped along by helpful hands and careful ( Read more... ) -
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I've run out of words. Not sure how/if I'm going to manage larping this evening ( Read more... ) -
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Just to clear things up: Feeling angry/helpless when I think of something that someone did to hurt me (or without caring whether they'd hurt me), and not trusting them anymore, doesn't mean I hate them. If I was going to turn all that energy I was pouring into trying to fix things into hating them instead, well, I'd rather just keep being a ( Read more... ) -
The only person I can control is myself.
The only person I can control is myself. The only actions I can make happen or prevent are my own. The only time I can schedule is that which I possess or have been offered ( Read more... ) -
FREEDOM!
All that drama is now entirely not my problem, at least until the cycle comes back to this point and it explodes everywhere in two to four months. Then there'll be pieces to pick up, because we don't want that sort of thing leaving metaphorical glass stuck in the metaphorical carpet, or metaphorical booze-stains everywhere ( Read more... ) -
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I've got the everything-is-falling-apart feeling again, and I'm trying to hang on until tomorrow lunchtime, while also knowing that putting on too much pressure is more likely than anything else to cause the falling apart. I'm trying to monitor what's making me happy and what's making me sad, and all I've come up with is 'hugs = good' and 'angsting ( Read more... ) -
When things are actually less scary than they appear, but your heart won't believe it.
Disclaimer: I am not a mental health professional, just a person who is musing about brains and feelings and relationships and how people support one another and how we're all, like, one big family, maaaaaan ( Read more... )