I need to pull out of this. It's starting to get ridiculous. I can't function. I don't sleep, I eat too much, and even if I have fun, I can't really enjoy it. I fly off the handle really easily, I do stupid shit, get myself in situations that aren't ok, and am generally screwing up. A lot ( Read more... )

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A few years ago I chose a motto for myself that I decided would embody everything I did, or tried to do. I realized today that I haven't been living it. Nearly everything I own has this motto on it, to remind me. "Live a passionate life." Somehow just having my life obstructed by depression doesn't make it okay to not live this. I've found myself ( Read more... )

well well. I don't really have time to be updating this as much as I have been, but I think that's ok. I have done nothing but go to class, work and do homework for two weeks. A little partying, a little hanging out, but not too much. At this point, it doesn't look like it's gonna get much better. I just need to stay on top of the ball and do what ( Read more... )

I hate when I'm not prepared for my life to fall apart. Pat and I broke up perhaps a month ago, so it shouldn't completely ruin my life to see him, but it did. I'm even involved with someone else who cares about me a whole hell of a lot more than Pat ever did, but it doesn't make it feel better. Pat ignored me. Granted there were a lot of people ( Read more... )

oh baby, class is BACK! so far they're all just long as hell and not so fun. My lecturer for English is NUTS, but I sat next to Billy Sauer today (he apparently goes by Bill)... Other than class, and what appears to be a lot of homework, life is good. I've been working a lot which could make for a busy spring term, but I need the money really badly ( Read more... )

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Is it real when he calls you every day? How about when he kisses you goodbye every time you leave? Is it real when you talk for hours on end at 3 in the morning? Is it real when he says you're beautiful and means it? Is it real when he doesn't mind kissing you in front of his friends, or yours? Is it even real when he says I love you? Is it ever

So it's been a while... uh, oh well... Let's try and recap everything that's happened since then ( Read more... )

My life is crazily uneventful. seriously, the coolest thing to happen to me in the last week was getting my haircut. lame? yes. My dad is looking at an '89 Honda tomorrow. I don't care if it's the ugliest thing ever. If it runs, and is cheap, I want it. I don't really know where I'll park it, cause we have one parking spot, and it might be ( Read more... )