ITS ABOUT HAVING IT ALL ( Read more... )

sitting at a friends house... on the computer ( Read more... )

Im talking to Khrystal online right now, watching Sex and the City ( Read more... )

im sitting in bed not knowing what to do. i should go to sleep, i shoulda gone to sleep a couple hours ago since i open tomorrow morning, 430am. but im filled with a sense of unease. like im wasting my life. i cant get my brain to stop.. just stop. what i would do to not be me, to not feel the way that i do. im alone, no one cares. no one knows. ( Read more... )

SO TODAY IS VALENTINES DAY ( Read more... )

Emotionally: I have felt my all-time low. I lost the person i loved more than anything, I lost a couple "brother"-figures in my life, I have lost myself. I became this sad mopey girl and then I had my girls remind how stupid I was being, and I realized who my true friends are. Who I can count on. Who I really want in my life. For some reason... I ( Read more... )

A sudden grasp on reality… on temporary. We wont have 85% of the people in our lives now, still in our lives in 5 years. In one very major way this is an incredibly depressing fact, in another aspect it is the most exciting and hopeful way to look at life. Why let temporary circumstance take away from the present? Why keep these people around if I ( Read more... )

how can one's soul hold so much power over another's? how can i be ecstatically happy one moment and desperately sad gasping for breath the next? is it truly worth it to have faith in the world... i am spiraling down an endless tunnel not knowing whether or not i will make it out alive.

is there a light at the end of this tunnel?

this feeling of happiness is simply too much to handle ( Read more... )

i realized a couple nights ago that i am a completely different person than i was last year.. and so much more different than i was 2 years ago. ive grown up, ive grown down in some ways haha, and ive gotten myself in a situation that i absolutely hate. all in all, ive decided that i used to be so much more healthy. before i started depending on ( Read more... )