Take strength from friendship. Take pride in love. Take everything that you believe in--and turn it all to power.Last Thursday, Tony and I went to spin class at BSC to work off all the stress and strifes of the previous seven days. As we were changing, Tony grabbed my arm and was like, "What the fuck is up with this whole tattoo thing? What made ( Read more... )

Guilt is a useless emotion.

Two Saturdays ago, I woke up around in the middle of the night around 4am and I looked in front of me and there was Josh-- sleeping right beside me. In my head, I'm thinking: Oh, I've gotta be dreaming. There he was, laying right in front of me looking cute as ever. I pushed his hair back, hugged him softly and fell ( Read more... )

It took me three days to write this. And you're about to see why ( Read more... )

Chani: "Look at you. You have a beautiful smile."

Monday night, I went to the gym and got on an exercise bike. I did 10 miles in half-an hour. I had a pheonomenal workout playlist that kept me going. I kept playing some of the same songs over and over again, especially "Accept Me: Kitano Extended Mixshow Remix" by Vernessa Mitchell. That song is ( Read more... )

Yesterday, I did a five-mile run in about 30, 45 minutes. It felt great. I went to Marino and worked-out hardcore. I completed my run, did 100 crunches and lifted weights. It's been a while since I've had a solid, routine workout since I've moved back to Boston this past month and a half. When I was there, I ran into Stephanie and she was like, ," ( Read more... )

Pain is only a pulse if you feel it.There's a lot of f-bombs in here...so be careful ( Read more... )

Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes its a quiet voice in the back that says, "I will try again tomorrow."It's been a month since I settled into my new place...and settled away from a chapter I've trying my best to leave behind. It feels like yesterday I was giving my landlord the lease, almost in tears that I had finally had this place that I ( Read more... )

Today, I sat in my office thinking about my move to Los Angeles and how great it's going to be when I move to a place I've been wanting to be for such a long time. I turned down three opportunities to move to Los Angeles and I'm not about to let it go by again. I'm ready. I know a lot of people hate Los Angeles; but I'm a city boy--I could never ( Read more... )

In my head, what happened Sunday night, happened. Since that night, I haven’t quite been able to figure out why this happened or what to make of it. I’m a little clueless as to how to proceed. In my head, I’m wondering if there’s any sincerity in Sunday night at all or if this is just a deflection-a roadblock into how great I’ve been proceeding ( Read more... )

Blake's life right now is a crystal stair. On the path to a great beginning, life is too good to be true. With an incredibly loving family, the man of his dreams and his career about to take off, Blake is at the top of life’s tower as he’s about to start his freshman year of college. All of that is about to change ( Read more... )