I know I'm acting retarded, but I miss my ferrets. They are staying at my sister's house until we move into the new house because we have to clean. I haven't spent this much time away from them since I had Nova and that was only Zara. When I went to visit Joseph for 4 days, I took them with me! I'm not used to them not being here...I want them ( Read more... )

So I was thinking...are you thinking about me? Do you ever think about how you've impacted my life? I doubt it. All you think about is yourself. I could probably give you an endless list of songs that make me cry because of you. You've ruined me. You are the reason I'm so angry. And yes...I'm blaming it on you. I won't say that I'm not. I ( Read more... )

It started again. Every night I have dreams about him. And the weird thing is...it isn't him NOW it is him back then. Last night I had a dream that my mom was friends with his mom and dragged me over to his house. When we got there, his car was in the driveway, but we were there for a long time before he even came out. When he finally did come ( Read more... )

Isn't incredibly weird how things can just be ok and you still feel like its all messed up? That's how I feel right now. Even though I'm buying my own house and getting away from the retarded people that live below us, I am overwhelmed by everything. Buying a house, getting my teeth fixed, hardly ever working, the apartment being all messed up ( Read more... )

I was just listening to this song and realized how much it reminds me of my sister. It doesn't matter if you think she's finally ok and not doing anything to mess up her life, she always does something else. I love her so much and I just want her to be able to have a normal life. Sometimes, as much as I hate the things in my life, I wish she had ( Read more... )

Where are you now? Why won't you talk to me? I was wondering, were it possible for you to erase me from ever having been in your life, would you? I think that as of right now, I would you. You are a constant thought in my mind. Its almost as if every memory I have of anything good in my life involves you ( Read more... )

Have you ever done something that later in life you've looked back on and wondered "why did I do that?" But not only did you wonder, but it hurt you to think that you ever had the chance to make it different... After Nova's birthday, I've been trying to get along with Kyle better. I love him so much, I am just so freakin' moody which is another ( Read more... )

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So I noticed....friendship isn't really worth the effort. You work so damn hard to keep a friendship and no matter what, it never, ever lasts. I guess it just doesn't make any sense to me how I can be such good friends with someone and than just disappear. Later, come to find out the supposed friend decided to be friends with all the friends she ( Read more... )

So I thought I would have a wonderful weekend going to the Warped Tour and all...boy, was I wrong. I'm not even going to go into too deep an explanation. I'm just going to say that it was hot; I got sick; I slept a bit; and I didn't really get to see any of the bands I went for to begin with. It was a bunch of crap ( Read more... )