Ahh.. Things were going good at the family christmas thing.. Except, when it was time for them to start cleaning up. My mom said "I'm going to start cleaning up" hoping for someone to help. Nope, as soon as she said it.. and i'm not kidding oyu, everyone left. My aunt carolyn was suppose to pack the care package and send it out .. (for my cousin ( Read more... )

LoL Andrea is kind of funny.. I dn't understand it though. It's not my fault this time! Yay! I just told her a few things I wanted her to change! Like feeling sorry for herself all the time, being so self centered, and all that.. I didn't mean to let it slip, but I told her that two of her friends agreed with me that she was self centered AT TIMES ( Read more... )

O.o I had a really good time yesterday! I got to see Heidi. That made the entire night awesome. I didn't spend one time with John at all, lol. Oh well, his fault anyways, but I watned to hang out with Amanda and Heidi.. so, screw them. I was busy all night, trying to make Kyle smile! Poor guy, his g/f didn't get to come! He was really upset.. and I ( Read more... )

Something came over me last night, and I wouldn't take Jeremy back.. Maybe my heart doesn't think it's the right time now.. I don't know... Then when I was going to.. it all screwed up.. and he went on about these things.. I don't know what i'mma do.. But i'm sure things will be settled fairly soon. Ehh.. I'm glad I got to sleep in totday.. Now I ( Read more... )

Eh Eh I'm really happy today, and I don't know why! lol I should be depressed and stuff, but all my band friends cheer me up! I am really excited about winterfest now.. ^_^ I don't even know my plans completey.. I have two choices lol It's all in Johns hands though. But i'm pretty sure i'm going with John now. He wants to go out to eat.. It will be ( Read more... )

I can not stop crying right now :'( It sucks so much. I don't know what to do! I knew he liked someone else.. I could feel it.. I have to give him up.. I just have to, or I will live life in depression for awhile. *sighs* I am not brave enough to hurt myself.. or else I would.. but i have no bravery at all.. I don't know what to do any more.. I ( Read more... )

I'm going to write some more, because I am bored, upset, depressed, angry, and .. just like everything.. I will ramble on, because I can, it's my journal and i'll do whatever the fuck I want to =) lol.. Jeremy just sent me an e-mail repling to "What time will you be on tonight?" And he replied "B4 9" lmao, I thought he was talking about a formula ( Read more... )

Why am I so stupid? I don't understand. I am a failure. I do nothing right. I don't know why I was brought here. Why Why Why? I need some answers, because I hate myself right now! I pretty much gave up the love of my life.. i don't know why.. Im just an idiot. I don't desreve anything. He deserves so much better than me.. I am worthless. I just ( Read more... )

Ehh.. So I guess we agreed to be friends.. it's going to be really hard for me. I am almost positive he will find someone else soon.. it's just one of those feelings, ya know? I don't know what will happen.. I really don't want to go to winterfest this weekend now :( But as I told John, i'm just using him for a ride anyways.. But why should I even ( Read more... )

Today was so perfect, it was a great day.. I WAS happy! I haven't been this happy in awhile! "Do you want to be friends?" SURE WE MIGHT AS FUCKING WELL, WE ACT LIKE IT. GOD. WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF QUESTOIN IS THAT. LETS JUST BLOW ONE FUCKING YEAR AWAY. GAHH ( Read more... )