lafonda got beat up really bad today, hes staying overnight in the hospital. the guy who beat him up in the hallway went to jail. i hope lafonda will be okay. much as we tease n torture him, hes still my friend and i dont want to loose him. cracked skull, smashed into the linolium floor....

ive lost control of my own mind. i am the voices. and the voices are out to get me. so in affect, im out to get me. i have no control over what they say, these thoughts (For they are thought voices, not out loud ones) they just pop into my head in responce to whatever i think. and they know just how to get me to react how they want me to because I ( Read more... )

cookies...."hey, come over were making sugar cookies ( Read more... )

so im going back to taoism ( Read more... )

i lost her. for good. she has cut me out of her life. and no, i dont think this is a good thing. i think this is the most miserable thing thats ever happened to me. im pathetic and i dont care. i need her. i dont care how unhealthy that is. i just keep crying like i lost everything, which i basically did. tiffany always had a hold on my heart. sure ( Read more... )

today i woke up only to remember that i wasnt going to see tiffany today. i have to wait one more day...so to mend my broken spirit i called gina. we decided the mall is a good place to mend a broken spirit. so i called ryan and jessica too. we sat at my house wathing popular until we had to leave. we also had a dart gun fight. we almost got hit by ( Read more... )

alright so, heres the whats new. not much has really changed which is the biggest change of all. stability at last. im still with tiffany (over a month now), gina is still my best friend (we went to the mall with ryan today. interesting as usual). and ferard continues to be awsome as usual. im keeping up in school, exept when i daydream in math ( Read more... )

cherylin Duca. i have nothing but fond memmorys of you. ill always remember you as the person who taught me only i could hurt me, and the hugs and overall caring that followed that wisdom.

today was awsome, a great end to a fantastic week. it may take a great deal of time and effort but im very happy in my quest to marry tiffany. she makes me feel....not whole, i feel that on my own. not even important or needed or any of those cliches. its more like she just makes me feel simply happy. a happy i havent felt since the good days with ( Read more... )

so...my life has decided to stop shitting on me. yay. hahah. ive had such an awsome week. i spent practically every day with gina, and life is always fun with gina around. and i saw ferard a lot too, and that was awsome. and he now owns the "wicked" soundtrack, so we will all hear it im sure. lol. so this week in a flash? crazy job, nathens, the ( Read more... )