Life could be taking a very unexpected turn for me soon, dont want to throw out maybes though. Kinda like that thrice song blood clots and blackholes. I'm due for a miracle you know? I don't take pity on myself, I'm content with life, like I've said before we always want more. So I've been waiting and waiting and it could finally be here, perhaps ( Read more... )

Well lets see... start off with something exciting... The other day I think I had a panic attack. One of my arms went numb except for a tingle and I couldnt move it at all, my heart was racing and my vision was all blurry. Frankly I thought I was finally losing control, I'm glad that wasn't the case. Exciting eh? I still need to get my tattoo ( Read more... )

Happy new year you mother fuckers.

Life has been crazy for me lately. Not in the sense that a lot is going on around me, but more that there is so much going on inside of my brain. I've reached this point many times before yet I never seem to do anything about it, which is really frustrating. So here it goes.. Work has become hell to me, not for any one reason, but many small ones. ( Read more... )

So wow... Yeah I was just thinking about how I've been looking to move out for some time now and decided to take a look at my financial situation. I drew up a budget of my income, straight salary with posibile bonus. Then put in the expenses: Rent, Gas, Food, Internet+Cable, and some other entertainment items. If I make no bonus for the month I ( Read more... )

Wow... Today was weird. I woke up at like 11 and ate some food, sat around for about an hour. Then at noon I started cleaning. Before I knew it I looked at my clock and it was 6:30. My room is the cleanest I think it has been for like 5 years. My closest = cleaned, all my drawers = cleaned, all the clutter and junk = gone. On top of that I cleaned ( Read more... )

Yeah the end of the period is always a little chaotic, but today was just nuts. I really dont want to get into it but basically I had to run shift, work a register(most of the day), do all the weekending and month end work, and work from 11 to 10:30 after which I had to take an hour long drive to the office in the middle of now where. So I had 0 ( Read more... )

Sometimes you just want to blow your own head off. Imagine the agony that comes when you realize you cant even do that. You wasted all your ammo on the poor saps who said they wanted to be near you. So you just light up a cigarette and sit in the dark praying for lung cancer to take you swifty away.

Went and talked to people about that tattoo I want to get. The guy I'm having do it is apparently amazing and I saw his work which looked very good. I gave him a sketch of what I wanted and he is going to work on a final design that we can play with on october 9th when I go in to get it. Im so excited.

AHA! I was driving home today and it just came to me. I have been thinking for like a week what I wanted to get for a tattoo. I don't feel like writing what it is here but know that its going to be on my chest and if I like you I will show you.