Why am I crying? Is there a point to this? Laying hoplessly inside these sheets hoping everything will just go away. But still I hide away, wasting every single day. I still don't have the strenghth to say

That everything is such a wreck and I need help to clean this mess. I'm so caught up in my own pride and now it's only got me down. I can't ( Read more... )

Contemplating what is right
Compared to everything I like
Is it a crime to pick and choose?

What qualifies a human being?
Is it so hard to sacrifice?
I guess I didn't make the team.

But it doesn't matter anyway
Cause I don't want to change
We can agree to disagree
Or make war in spite of rage
But either way I haven't died
I'm holding on to what's inside.
And ( Read more... )

I've been trying, really, REALLY fucking hard to stay positive, and be happy, and not let petty bullshit get to me, but somehow, i can't seem to let some things go ( Read more... )

Lately I've been doing a lot of reading, a lot of research on a concept that seems more legit than I thought. The Law of Attraction. Not necessarily the whole attration between people, but with EVERYTHING. It works like this ( Read more... )

I guess it takes a lot of effort to find that happy medium to live perfectly forever and after. The ups and downs are still constant, and I'm really exhausted. I guess I'll just start with the weekend ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I've posted here, and I suppose I should update my feelings. Hello, Internet, you rule at listening. Also, I just read a blog from Casey and got inspired ( Read more... )

Shop week. I'm really not enjoying this project we have to do. And I'm really not happy with the fact that I haven't done (nor will I do) any work at all. I hate myself sometimes, but I'm too lazy to change. I suppose that's my own problem, no? I guess if it really starts to bother me, I will. Whatever for now, I s'pose ( Read more... )

Long time, no update, huh? Everything and nothing is going on. It's been about 3 weeks since I've legit hung out with my "usual" friends. Spending a lot of time with old friends, more recent friends, and making new ones. I guess this break has been pretty nice. I really needed the space. Hopefully things will start getting better, maybe ( Read more... )

A lot has happened in the past couple of weeks.
I'm single, drove to maine, made a lot of cake, had some crazy nights, mad a lot of new friends, ate a ton of pizza, worked a whole bunch, yadda yadda.

Ultra mega stress lately. I'm so worried about everything, and then I'm so fucking off in my own little world. I feel rushed all the time. I wish I could just find some peace of mind with all this shit going on. I hate this. I just want to be done with all this shit. I need to call my dad, too ( Read more... )