Well, hm...
Long time, no update, huh? Everything and nothing is going on. It's been about 3 weeks since I've legit hung out with my "usual" friends. Spending a lot of time with old friends, more recent friends, and making new ones. I guess this break has been pretty nice. I really needed the space. Hopefully things will start getting better, maybe.
So much has been going on, I really have to think of what's happened. I started smoking more frequently, like every single day. It's not that bad. I enjoy myself. I've been hanging out with Aleigha lately. It's really nice. She's been a good friend of mine since like 8th grade. She keeps me in check lol. Also been taking trips out to the central area to hang with Gramma. I love hanging out with her. I wish we lived closer so we could hang more. She's coming to town today for shows and whatnot, so I get to hang with her today =) I actually get to see a lot of central massholes today. I'm pretty excited. =D!
I'm pretty sure I took my last trip to Salem on Saturday. Things were said, and I guess I just wasted my time, energy and money to make that kid happy. I guess it's partly my fault for falling in too deep once again, but he kind of lead me on, too. Either way, I'm done for now. I'm really tired of being ridiculously miserable for something that's not going to pay off in the end.
In other news, new friends (and getting closer with old acquaintances) is going fairly well. I'm kind of on the look out, but on the DL. I tend to fuck relationships up somehow, so I'm taking shit slowly (or trying). Love being a girl.
So, Big D and Catch 22 are playing Pearl Street the 28th and I'm fucking psyched. Although some undesirable people will be there, I am still completely pumped. It's in the club room, so it's gonna be PAAAACKED. Maybe I'll pop a bitch in the mouth. Who knows. Maybe I'll meet a nice ska-loving, cute boy to skank with. I tend to have luck in that area lulz. I'm really really really excited. Really.
I love being a hypocrite. I complain about people complaining. There's an extent to complaining, however, and some people just cross the line when they are whining about everything. That's why I try not to rant or vent to too many people because I don't want to come off as "that girl who is always complaining" you know? The kids in my shop? THEY cross the line. So fucking melodramatic, it really annoys me. Boo hoo, people are cracking meaningless jokes and I don't know how to fucking take it. Suck it up, and shut your mouth. Seriously.
Anyways..
I built a tent in the loft. 'Nuff said.
I've been having problems with my ears. Especially my left one. It's like ULTRA sensitive to sound, and certain pitches (actually most) really hurt my ear. It's like a shrilling pain, and it's getting really really old. I'm getting it checked out when I get my physical in April, but it doesn't seem to be getting any better at all. I think it's because of all the loud music at shows. I'm gonna have to start wearing ear plugs so I don't do anymore damage. This sucks.
I've been teeter-tottering that depression line. The smoking helps a bit, but still. Although I have to say that I've been feeling a lot more confident in myself, even if I still feel kinda self-conscious sometimes. It's something to continue working on. I really like being social, and I really like talking to people. It's just a matter of working out the awkward factor and the cynical thoughts that sometimes pop up. I'm doing much better than when I was in middle school. Sooooo much better.
Right now, I am really hungry. We have about 30 min until lunch, and I don't know if I can wait that long. My innards are like EATING themselves. Blah. Awesome.
I guess I'll stop at that. I have nothing more to say.
So much has been going on, I really have to think of what's happened. I started smoking more frequently, like every single day. It's not that bad. I enjoy myself. I've been hanging out with Aleigha lately. It's really nice. She's been a good friend of mine since like 8th grade. She keeps me in check lol. Also been taking trips out to the central area to hang with Gramma. I love hanging out with her. I wish we lived closer so we could hang more. She's coming to town today for shows and whatnot, so I get to hang with her today =) I actually get to see a lot of central massholes today. I'm pretty excited. =D!
I'm pretty sure I took my last trip to Salem on Saturday. Things were said, and I guess I just wasted my time, energy and money to make that kid happy. I guess it's partly my fault for falling in too deep once again, but he kind of lead me on, too. Either way, I'm done for now. I'm really tired of being ridiculously miserable for something that's not going to pay off in the end.
In other news, new friends (and getting closer with old acquaintances) is going fairly well. I'm kind of on the look out, but on the DL. I tend to fuck relationships up somehow, so I'm taking shit slowly (or trying). Love being a girl.
So, Big D and Catch 22 are playing Pearl Street the 28th and I'm fucking psyched. Although some undesirable people will be there, I am still completely pumped. It's in the club room, so it's gonna be PAAAACKED. Maybe I'll pop a bitch in the mouth. Who knows. Maybe I'll meet a nice ska-loving, cute boy to skank with. I tend to have luck in that area lulz. I'm really really really excited. Really.
I love being a hypocrite. I complain about people complaining. There's an extent to complaining, however, and some people just cross the line when they are whining about everything. That's why I try not to rant or vent to too many people because I don't want to come off as "that girl who is always complaining" you know? The kids in my shop? THEY cross the line. So fucking melodramatic, it really annoys me. Boo hoo, people are cracking meaningless jokes and I don't know how to fucking take it. Suck it up, and shut your mouth. Seriously.
Anyways..
I built a tent in the loft. 'Nuff said.
I've been having problems with my ears. Especially my left one. It's like ULTRA sensitive to sound, and certain pitches (actually most) really hurt my ear. It's like a shrilling pain, and it's getting really really old. I'm getting it checked out when I get my physical in April, but it doesn't seem to be getting any better at all. I think it's because of all the loud music at shows. I'm gonna have to start wearing ear plugs so I don't do anymore damage. This sucks.
I've been teeter-tottering that depression line. The smoking helps a bit, but still. Although I have to say that I've been feeling a lot more confident in myself, even if I still feel kinda self-conscious sometimes. It's something to continue working on. I really like being social, and I really like talking to people. It's just a matter of working out the awkward factor and the cynical thoughts that sometimes pop up. I'm doing much better than when I was in middle school. Sooooo much better.
Right now, I am really hungry. We have about 30 min until lunch, and I don't know if I can wait that long. My innards are like EATING themselves. Blah. Awesome.
I guess I'll stop at that. I have nothing more to say.