Im at mary's right now... Josh is here too. I want somebody to love on... More like, Alex. Heh, he fucked me, then broke up with me. I feel so used. lol, but really, I do. I feel like shit. He was so nice to me though, I mean really, and he didnt even mind that I didnt "want to" at first... Then, it just kinda went away... Heh, good thing I wasnt ( Read more... )

i finally got some god damn pictures taken of me!!!! Here they are! (like anybody one to look at them anyways)


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I got these one diet kinda pills. I havent used them yet though but Im so excited! I wrote to my birthmom last night on another email thing because she blocked the one I have now. I should check and see if I still have it... But ya. Dude, I really have nothing to live for. There are to things that Im counting on keeping me alive. Konrad, and my ( Read more... )

I cant figure this god forsaken thing out. I dont want my background blue. I want it black. But I CANT FIGURE IT OUT. I havent been horny for a long time. Its weird. Maybe I should take those horny pills when Im around Konrad... I miss him. I wanted him so bad last night, just for him to hold me, and be there. Mary, lol, you know how you said you ( Read more... )

Hmmm. Dude, I finally got my own e-mail. But, like, I did it by myself. My parents dont know about it thank god. It is DrowningClown00@yahoo.com. My pacage didnt come today. I read the thing on Hot Topic today and it said it would take 2 business days, then it would come the day after that! Tomorrow, I will sit outside!! Mary is also coming over, ( Read more... )

Holly Shit! Dude, Im gald I even still have this thing! Its been like forever. Ok, whats happend: I found my birthmom. We met on my birthday. We exchanged numbers and everything. I was so excited I found my mommy! We talked for like a week, and everything and I told her I wanted to come live with her. She said give it a year and I wanted to too. ( Read more... )

Screw it, I cant do it. Its a lil too complecated for me at this point. Anyways, Happy Valentines Day for all you happy and gay lovers! (Yes, I know that you people cant comment at me, because, I DONT HAVE AN E-MAIL! And it wont mater any more now.) Byebye, luv yall.

My family is going to put a parental block thing on this website so I cant get on any more, like, write. But I think there are going to be a lot of things going on in my future. I hope to get back on later in life, but I doubt it will be soon. Hopefully this thing wont go away or something. O, ya, and I was going to put a picture of me on here, but ( Read more... )

I finished my book today, Cut. I got 3 news ones too. We got out of school early today, 11:45. I had my first piano lesson today too. Nothing much running through my mind, but I dont think I wanna go to college. I dont know why. I do, but I dont. Its too much shit to put up with but then there are all these stories about how fun it is and ( Read more... )

I have two friends now at my school who I adore. Alexa and Lauren. They are kinda like me, actually they are. Meaning, not "like me", but they are, in that group area like. They might go snowboarding with me next time I go. Maybe even this weekend. But now I hope I dont start my period by the time the weekend comes. Or I either hope it comes soon ( Read more... )