Thank you so much Mary for being so sweet to me like that. It makes me feel way beter. My mom just told me that I'm never going to get any where in life, that I'm not going to make it through or live it out well. She told me because I wont hang out with preps and the kind of music I listen to, she thinks I'm going down because of that? And the way ( Read more... )

*Black, black is all I see when I wake up in the middle of the night cold, restless, alone. I rip the covers off me, walk into the living room and the the back door where out pool is. The multicolor lights are bright and call for me. The grandfather clock chimes 2:00am as I take my shirt off along with the rest of my clothes. I'm cold and naked, ( Read more... )

I went snowboarding today with Brian. I had private lessons and my "teacher" was like whoa. (o, and sorry I havent writen in a while) He was fine, but thats not what atracted me. He was so sweet kind, and just whoa. He was only 18. Oh man, and dude, I got his #! He lives around me too! Isnt that great! He was like, call me when your 17, then we can ( Read more... )

Viv called me like a cupple of minutes ago. She was at the roller rink waiting for Sarah and Angelica. Right, they were not there yet. She said like she felt like a loner, so she called me. Thats so rude. God, she is begining to have an attitude up her ass and she needs to get it out fast, or it will stay 4ever. Shit, people are so rude some times ( Read more... )

Sorry I havent writen ina while. But oh well. Nothing has really been going on. But, I keep thinking about this dude I met in a chatroom like a year ago. I talkd to him and everything and found out just a little about him. 15/m/texas. He seems so sad too and he told me he wants somebody to "save" him. He didnt really like me and still doesnt. He ( Read more... )

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM NOT GOING TO TYPE FUCKING EVERYTHING BACK AGAIN! I JUST WROTE THIS HUGE PAGE FOR MY JOURNAL AND IT JUST WENT AWAY SOME HOW!! Anyways, I'll tell you one thing I wrote. I passed myself out, and I woke up on the floor hunched over clutching my head... Then, I just started to cry and I didnt know why. Then, there was a ( Read more... )

God dude. My stupid mom came in here and shes like, I hope you're not giving out your name. And dont tell anybody where you live. GOD! NOBODY THINKS I KNOW ANYTHING! ITS FUCKING DRIVING ME NUTS! YOUR OLNY 12 EMILY, YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING, THEY ALL TELL ME. BULLSHIT. THATS WHY IM STILL ALIVE RIGHT NOW! I HAVE DONE A LOT OF BAD AND DANGEROUS THINGS ( Read more... )

Jamie told Sarah that I called Alex and told him Jamie was cheating on Adam. Then shes like, Emilys just jelous that I have Adam. Why would I be jelous? I dont even like him. Plus, I had the chance to have had him all to me, but no. And why? Because I dont like him. What the hell is her problem? God. And everybody knows Adam is just using her for ( Read more... )

I need to download: 1- Change 2- Strawberry Gashes 3- Fine Again 4- the Red 5- Hit That 6- Like a Virgin 7- Out of Control 8- Kyle's Mom's a Bitch 9- Dont Speak 10- Driven Under 11- Closure 12- Creatures (for a while) 13- Meant to Live 14- Something Vague 15- Feeling This

Im over at Mary's house right now and JOSH wont come over! I havent met him yet,but I have heard so much about him and everything, I have even talked to him. Then finally today, I was going to meet him, but NO!!! And he is HELLA HOT too! Hmm, I wrote a story and I finally finished it like, Wednesday. Damn, and it took me like a few months to finish ( Read more... )