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I have two friends now at my school who I adore. Alexa and Lauren. They are kinda like me, actually they are. Meaning, not "like me", but they are, in that group area like. They might go snowboarding with me next time I go. Maybe even this weekend. But now I hope I dont start my period by the time the weekend comes. Or I either hope it comes soon so I can get most of it over with. Hehe. Anyway, I really wanna go. I have nothing that important to do other wise. Plus, it makes me sad that I'm going to be alone on Valetines Day. But I will live. I always do. My mom called this place, you know those people who you go to to talk to? And it casts like a lot of money? Well ya, my mom called one of those people. It was for more intence people that need care or something. Mom has to find a different one for me now. I have piano lessons tomorrow..... And we also get to wear anything, meaning, no uniforms! Plus we get out early! And we dont have school Friday or Monday! Yea!!! Please no period then! PLEASE!
I dont know what to do with myself any more. I mean, I'm just here. Once again, I dont feel anything now. Its weird if you have ever felt that before, huh?
*Nothing comes to mind, I just grab my favorite things I own and slide out my bathroom window at 1:00am. Its cold, freezing, but my mind is not on that right now, or I try to make it spin to another topic. How long am I going to be out here? Where am I going? What am I doing? I didnt want to think about those things though, I didnt want to think about anything, just nothing. I kept walking into nowhere with my mind blank and my eyes wondering about.
Soon, a crack of light breaks the thick darkness, its morning, but I had not even an estament of what time it was. A white car drives by me, leaving me awake and out of my dream. Startled, I couldnt recognize where I was, but I didnt care then, and I doubt I ever would. A small boy is walking on the sidewalk Im on. He has a backpack on and a flashlight in his hand, he looks a little scared. He dropped his flashlight when he saw me, standing ever so still, then ran twared me as fast as he could. Then, he just, stabbed me, right in my stumache. I didnt blink, I didnt move, I didnt think, I did nothing. Only seeing the boy walk slowly back to his flashlight, then look back at me. A tear drop feel from his rosey check. A red hase clouded my vision, then my mind, then nothing. There was nothing......*
I dont know what to do with myself any more. I mean, I'm just here. Once again, I dont feel anything now. Its weird if you have ever felt that before, huh?
*Nothing comes to mind, I just grab my favorite things I own and slide out my bathroom window at 1:00am. Its cold, freezing, but my mind is not on that right now, or I try to make it spin to another topic. How long am I going to be out here? Where am I going? What am I doing? I didnt want to think about those things though, I didnt want to think about anything, just nothing. I kept walking into nowhere with my mind blank and my eyes wondering about.
Soon, a crack of light breaks the thick darkness, its morning, but I had not even an estament of what time it was. A white car drives by me, leaving me awake and out of my dream. Startled, I couldnt recognize where I was, but I didnt care then, and I doubt I ever would. A small boy is walking on the sidewalk Im on. He has a backpack on and a flashlight in his hand, he looks a little scared. He dropped his flashlight when he saw me, standing ever so still, then ran twared me as fast as he could. Then, he just, stabbed me, right in my stumache. I didnt blink, I didnt move, I didnt think, I did nothing. Only seeing the boy walk slowly back to his flashlight, then look back at me. A tear drop feel from his rosey check. A red hase clouded my vision, then my mind, then nothing. There was nothing......*