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Work and play
So i start my new job tomorrow. I'm going to be a software analyst for a company called autobase. They work with dealerships around the country. After six weeks of training i'll be allowed to answer phones. UGH! training. But it looks like it will be a good job. And any job after the time i've had off is a good job to me. Starting pay is only 30k ( Read more... ) -
Update
So i'm getting back involved in the community, or more realistically, the gaming world. I'm hoping to meet some friends and get some playing time and dming time if i can find the people to fill out a group ( Read more... ) -
Home
I'm back in Indianapolis. I don't know why i ever left. Or rather, i do, but i was errant in my judgment. Now i must make up for lost time with my kids. God it is good to see them again. Never again, i vow, will i ever leave them, even if this means living and dying alone. -
1/2 a week
And then i leave. I wonder if this is something i'll be thankful for or not. The closer to the deadline, the further i go from thinking i've made the right decision, but i've already set all the wheels in motion and the brake is unchecked. The stop word went unspoken ( Read more... ) -
Wasted
I've been asked why i made the choice i did. And beyond what i've already written, which i'll likely reference a little in this, one things stands above everything else. Waste ( Read more... ) -
Love
What is love? Can someone answer me this question? It is something that has been consuming my thoughts for weeks now and i can't shake it. How, beyond the scientific reality of hormones blah blah, does it steep into our bodies and minds- perhaps a better way to phrase this is why? How can a love hide inside someone for so many years and then rear ( Read more... ) -
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Nobody did anything wrong. Or perhaps i did. Or perhaps fate simply decided to intervene in my life and change the course i was on. Does any of it matter? What has been decided has been decided, for better or worse. It will be a change for everyone, perhaps a good one, perhaps not. We won't know until i'm gone which isn't happening today, or even ( Read more... ) -
Children
How many of you know what it's like to make children your life? How many of you know what it feels like to love another in such a manner that it feels your heart must burst with all the emotions you hold ( Read more... ) -
No rest for the weary
I'm going to get a tattoo. I will wear it, and endure it, as a motto for the life i've been granted. It shall be placed upon my back. The words no rest for the weary, shall go from shoulder to shoulder, and beneath that shall be a forlorn scarecrow crucified to the post, with button eyes sagging, and no mouth stitched on. It is my symbol now. AND ( Read more... ) -
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I have until December to get out if that is my choice. What is my choice? What is the point.