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Nobody did anything wrong. Or perhaps i did. Or perhaps fate simply decided to intervene in my life and change the course i was on. Does any of it matter? What has been decided has been decided, for better or worse. It will be a change for everyone, perhaps a good one, perhaps not. We won't know until i'm gone which isn't happening today, or even tomorrow.
What does need to happen is people need to understand that i am going, and i didn't choose this decision lightly. I weighed many factors and ultimately felt that i might be able to best benefit myself and those two babes i love more than life by making this change. Forgive me or not if i'm making the wrong choice. But realize it is my choice to make regardless of the consequences, and the burdens are mine alone to bear. None other need carry the cross that i will wear upon my back.
I'm sorry for those of you i've hurt. BUT please don't think i don't hurt inside too. I ache with the fear that i'm making the wrong choice- i sweat with the knowledge that i'm getting ready to undergo one of the largest changes to date in my life- i tremble with trepidation at the unknown before me. I wax poetic ;)
At least that is one good thing this change has brought- my writer's block seems to have crumbled. Or perhaps it's not a good thing as now i'm filling up your inboxes, and not in the pleasant intensely erotic ways.
Enough of that though. Let me walk my path and decide for myself whether the consequences are worth it. Walk with me, or let me walk alone, just let me walk.
What does need to happen is people need to understand that i am going, and i didn't choose this decision lightly. I weighed many factors and ultimately felt that i might be able to best benefit myself and those two babes i love more than life by making this change. Forgive me or not if i'm making the wrong choice. But realize it is my choice to make regardless of the consequences, and the burdens are mine alone to bear. None other need carry the cross that i will wear upon my back.
I'm sorry for those of you i've hurt. BUT please don't think i don't hurt inside too. I ache with the fear that i'm making the wrong choice- i sweat with the knowledge that i'm getting ready to undergo one of the largest changes to date in my life- i tremble with trepidation at the unknown before me. I wax poetic ;)
At least that is one good thing this change has brought- my writer's block seems to have crumbled. Or perhaps it's not a good thing as now i'm filling up your inboxes, and not in the pleasant intensely erotic ways.
Enough of that though. Let me walk my path and decide for myself whether the consequences are worth it. Walk with me, or let me walk alone, just let me walk.