When one person can't tell u to your face, the one thing that you are destined to hear, how can you possibly forgive ( Read more... )

I don't really know what to say anymore. I don't even know why I write in here. I guess I am hoping that one day it helps. That maybe one day it will all just go away. The pain inside me, it lays upon my chest like a stone wall. I can feel it everyday, with each and every breath ( Read more... )

Dont really know what to say. Not to much has happened. We had Ryan's birthday party, and that went really well. Mike was really disappointed in his Dad for not showing up until the party was over. Im like, did u expect anything different? All his dad cares about is sports. He would much rather do his sports bullshit than actually attend his ( Read more... )

I often hate night now. I remember being younger and wanting to stay out for all hours of the night, even if it was doing nothing. Now night is the time that I look back and reflect on every stupid move I have ever made. I sit thinking about all the friends I've lost, and how much I miss some of them so much. How right now, I could really use one ( Read more... )

Today, is probably one of the best days i've had a work in a really long time. I went up to Larry today, and pretty much told him that I thought Stacie, was a total waste of the companies time and money. I am hoping that on friday, when I go in with my list of things that need to be changed, I am going to demand that I become the new CSA lead for ( Read more... )

Ugh, life, is so dull. I honestly dont know what to do about it anymore. I ended up going to Canada on Friday with Mike and a couple of my friends. Didn't really have fun. Its hard to have fun with Mike anymore. I dont know why. I feel so old. I feel like I am going to live the rest of my life, never knowing what a true love is. I love Mike, but am ( Read more... )

Im seriously going to take me and Mike to the Dr. Phil show. I think the guy is a total genius. I tried talking to Mike again today about everything that I feel. He thinks its only about the damn purse issue. It's not about the purse. Why can't he understand that? I dont care if I don't get the purse it isn't about that. I just feel so...I dont ( Read more... )

Well, my oh my its been so long since I last wrote on here. So much has changed, and I dont even know where to begin. I really dont know why I have started writing on here again. I guess it's because sometimes I feel like I have no place to turn. I know that sounds silly, but my husband doesn't really understand me a whole lot, and Ryan, well I can ( Read more... )

This year has certainly left it's mark. I don't think I have ever made so many stupid decisions as I have this year, and I am so glad to be saying goodbye to them all. For some reason I feel like I am just leaving so much. And I am missing so much. I miss a lot of my friends, but it's just that I don't have much in common with them anymore. They ( Read more... )

Well me and Mike have finally found our apartment. Now the only issue is going to be affording it. I wish we could find a roomate, but it's hard to really trust someone with something as big as sharing a place to live. None of our friends make any kind of money. Dave Booth was our best hope, but he's leaving to go into the marines. That sucks. ( Read more... )