Days go by
Dont really know what to say. Not to much has happened. We had Ryan's birthday party, and that went really well. Mike was really disappointed in his Dad for not showing up until the party was over. Im like, did u expect anything different? All his dad cares about is sports. He would much rather do his sports bullshit than actually attend his grandsons 1st birthday party. It was a special day, he should have been there. Im at the point, where I am no longer angry, or sad, just bitter. Those people are the only reasons me and Mike have problems. They are all we usually ever fight about. Ugh, I dont even want to talk about it anymore, Im just to damn pissed off.
Anyways, me and Mike are ok. There are days to when I just don't know, and other days to where I know I just couldn't be happier with anyone else. I just dont want to feel to old, to fast. Im afraid that, because i have a lot of energy and such, that Mike isn't going to be able to keep up with me. Like at thirty, im going to feel fifty. I dont want that to happen to us. We dont really have a long time here on earth, so I'd like to try and at least make the most of it. I want to travel, a lot, and I dont know if that's even going to one day be possible. I just hope that one day, I can have that spark back. I want to rekindle everything, and yet, I have a fear of not knowing if it's possible. Ugh, to be a teenager again. Life was so easy back then.
Anyways, me and Mike are ok. There are days to when I just don't know, and other days to where I know I just couldn't be happier with anyone else. I just dont want to feel to old, to fast. Im afraid that, because i have a lot of energy and such, that Mike isn't going to be able to keep up with me. Like at thirty, im going to feel fifty. I dont want that to happen to us. We dont really have a long time here on earth, so I'd like to try and at least make the most of it. I want to travel, a lot, and I dont know if that's even going to one day be possible. I just hope that one day, I can have that spark back. I want to rekindle everything, and yet, I have a fear of not knowing if it's possible. Ugh, to be a teenager again. Life was so easy back then.