i want to be free from myself.

why do i feel like my chances to do anything are severely diminished ( Read more... )

at their show on friday night, evan pointed at me from the stage.
there were at least a hundred people in the crowd, drunk and dancing.
i realized at the moment how much i love my life.
im young and in college, im in love with a rockstar, and he thinks im adorable.

biology is hard ( Read more... )

im getting older and more responsible.
but still, i felt as helpless as a little kid last night when i woke up crying from nightmares.

im high but im grounded/ im sane but im overwhelmed/ im lost but im hopeful baby

ive really fallen away from the family of friends i made in mcvicker freshman year. sofia said it was becasue i have a boyfriend ( Read more... )

really, these days my life is super average. evan and i are madly and happily in love for maybe the first time since we started dating a year ago. he promised me i could come to chicago over winter break with him, but before that im going to meet his parents and little brother at his senior concert. this is scary. i dont expect him to help me out ( Read more... )

picture this
40 people at my house
and im on my second forty.
everyone should leave
me to my anger
(you're not like me).

the drums feel loud and safe
you chest smells musty and familiar but
you're not here
and the drums live far away
on a tidal wave.

this is not what i wanted
this is what i got

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lat night i had a dream ( Read more... )