Paid off my credit card and my mortgage and still have money :)
Went to the gym today (181.8#)
Finished most of my notes!
Going to WNBA game tonight. Ive never been but we'll have a good time.
Not thinking about exes anymore thank goodness.

Relaxing at home right now.

Oh and i got KUDOS at work! After i received a "complaint" from a patient i called ( Read more... )

I checked it. They look really happy together. Why am i even looking? Why do i care? Its silly and a waste of energy.
Good news is i didnt make her or my own eyes roll by saying some half baked sappy, i kiss u but i dont know what that means crap.
Tbh i went through this a few times with other people throughout the years: echo, ashley, leslie, ( Read more... )

I keep thinking about amber sanchez-- alias. I dont want her and everytime i talk to her i get reminded of why i stopped talking to her. I miss something though. I feel like a sucker and confused about my feelings. Theres no way i would leave Amy and our relationship is solid.
I guess i miss being wanted. I could text her but i would just blurt ( Read more... )

Had a dream that a surrogate mother was fighting to keep the baby she carried in a commune i lived in. When i excused myself jonny depp and some 4 year olds followed me. Then i woke up. I know dreams are meant to be strange but mine seem random. Usually mine are realistic, improbable possibilities.
Have been extremely weepy. I dislike it a great ( Read more... )

Spoke to Alexis and Amy. I just need to ride it out. Feel how I feel and live.

Life is good... It can get annoying but im not running from rebels, i have my health, my family is getting along for the most part ;), and im not stupid or worthless... My depression isnt gonna eclipse me!! Fuck that shit.

Saw that the president is for same sex marriage ( Read more... )

Im in a funk. I thought it was just the job but its everything. I feel worthless and cant shake it.

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Went to my favorite Thai place with Alexis today and we talked about confidence.

I stick with things when they destroy me.

I abandon habits when the effect isnt instant.

I do things compulsively good or bad.

Got a job lost one in less than a month.

Cried about it! I didnt feel safe and no one showed me how to do anything.

I think i hate being told ( Read more... )

My other job. Lasted two weeks... They were just a bit too casual about training me. I felt bad for doing it, i dont like to quit things but i felt so many different ways about it.
No one liked me. Not the most important thing but i like to get along with ppl, have a clear idea of what im doing, enjoy my work. At least two out of three is great.
I ( Read more... )

Pros
They hired u
Experience in spades
Everyone is learning too
24$ an hour
Wont quit
Authority
Limited engagement

Cons
Disorganized
No training
Unwilling to train weekends
Unsafe
No one exp on standby
Weekends are gone
Potential license issues
Charge nurse w no exp

I dunno man. In home right now watching true blood. Called in today bc i have a fever and threw up ( Read more... )

Is great! I have a good woman a good job im at s truce with myself. I have a new pt job. Wow.
I have two jobs. It hasnt sunken in yet because ive yet to work successive shifts but i will. I asked them to cap my visits at 25-30 to stay at full time but not go into ridiculous territory and sat i go in 9-6. Bout to work like an immigrant!
I wanted ( Read more... )