Day before last i dreamt i carried around a baby bear cub, had a personal starbucks and a homemade elevator.
Just now i had a true blood dream or it rnded that way... Initially it just had zombies. Danny trejo pretended to be one and then shot all of them. He was eaten and told us to take 20$ to get on the ferry. In chaotic times u gave to pay for ( Read more... )

Went to Normans wake wednesday. The room was over capacity. Alexis started crying just because the love for him was so apparent. He didnt have an "important" job or lots of money... But people came in droves to say their goodbyes.
We have to enjoy life now. Plans can change. People die...
Im gonna miss you Norman. You believed in me when every ( Read more... )

Norman died a couple days ago. I was rededicating myself to his lessons for a while and then it fell through. I thought about him every saturday at 930. I thought well if he wanted me there he'd call. And now hes passed an i feel guilty. He believed in my talent and pushed me to be better. Ill miss him. He was like Yoda: he hated the word try. To ( Read more... )

Why i want a six pack
Maybe a six pack is too far but shoot for the moon. I want to workout bc im vain. I want to look good and not have rolls and love my body. Not in the dove way but in the im gonna be universally fuckable way. Today while exercising i thought fuck it. Ill just be fat. But i hate being much bigger than amy. I hate having a ( Read more... )

Went on a bender yesterday. Rum and coke. Its not fun so why do i do it? I didnt for a long time so why start back up ? I want to throw it away but i replace it.
I was sipposed to work out moved it to tmrw. Ordered wings from papa johns. Gonna chill today and make myself feel better :)

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I hate myself at times because my actions arent in line with my goals.
First you have to make goals
Then take steps to reach those goals
Those steps may and probably will involve doing things when you don't have time or feel like it.
Inspiration is like coke the high doesn't last you gotta keep doing it (weird analogy)

I get annoyed bc i dont follow ( Read more... )

I had amazing sex with amy yesterday. Really intense and primal lots of eye contact and thrusting haha. Animalistic style. Slept wonderfully! While i was dreaming i had a dream joe vega was playing a show and no one was there, i ran into the girl whose name i can never remember but who is nice to me. And i look up and ria is walking through the ( Read more... )

I partied drank four beers, sipped syrup and went to bed and had crazy dreams.
Adriana from the sopranos fucked me in some cabin and in the dream i was still with amy but i was like if im gonna do it might as well. I woke up turned on.
And felt guilty later. In real life i wouldnt cheat but damn that was a great dream!

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I want to live forever. I want to be respected admired loved feared wealthy.
How am i gonna do that as a nurse?
I didnt invent nursing. I wouldnt be a great doctor. Or a gangster... Maybe if i were a male and the threat of rape wasnt always apparent.
Hm. Fame is fleeting. Watching the sopranos box set i got for a steal its apparent. In order for ppl ( Read more... )

I watch rough straight porn. Im not into sex with men and have never been in love with a man. Theres a block there.
Lesbian porn sucks! The closest thing to it is the real l word and the l word and when tara was a lesbian in season four of true blood.

Its always weirded me out a lil bit. Who do i identify with? Why cant i watch the accused without ( Read more... )