Somebody that i used to know
I keep thinking about amber sanchez-- alias. I dont want her and everytime i talk to her i get reminded of why i stopped talking to her. I miss something though. I feel like a sucker and confused about my feelings. Theres no way i would leave Amy and our relationship is solid.
I guess i miss being wanted. I could text her but i would just blurt something and wish i could unsend it. She treated me like shit, and said she cared, said we were meant to be together. Im pretty sure that was just game or drugs. Oh and she was a serious drug addict: xanax and adderal. She never had sex with me sober so that gave me a complex. And was fucking a guy when we were talking.
Im in love. Im happy. So why the lingering anything?
Fucking facebook. I saw that she added her ex who she cheated on. I guess theyre cool again. Last year she said they hadnt had sex in months because she cheated. And that she had fucked a girl and guy within a few weeks. She should treat herself better. So should I.
I just need to let it all go. I dont want to go backwards.
I should get my full attention :)
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