you can't choose things you have not been given control over ( Read more... )

minus my obvious anger at times... i've been pretty ok ( Read more... )

naturally, i get such an ego boost when people tell me "you're looking good" or "you've lost so much weight" or "you look so skinny". since it's been almost a year i sometimes forget just how much of a difference 25 pounds and 3 pant sizes can make. as lourdes has grown fond of telling me, i'm looking better than ever. now i have to do some serious ( Read more... )

i'm trying to force myself back into the swing of things, but it's been tricky. it's kind of sad when i stop and think about how hard i have to try just to do simple things like hang out with people and not kill them in the process. i've come to accept it because i've realized that feeling this way is something i really can't help. so i try to be ( Read more... )

i stayed home instead of going to vero beach this weekend because i've really wanted to be alone for a while, and i never get a moment of peace here. there's always at least one person home (usually more plus guests) plus i'm always forced to be around people at work or otherwise. i just wanted some time to myself to do absolutely nothing ( Read more... )

i was reading an old perezhilton post just to refresh my memory about why he was being sued by sony BMG and this was the 6th comment:

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   WHITE MEN HAVE SMALL WEENIES!!! says - reply to this
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   Yes, white men wish they had massive snakes like black men so they could give ( Read more... )

so i've been trying to exercise a few days a week when i get home from work to help me lose weight, get more energy, and hopefully cure some of the blues. but instead everytime i do it i'm so awake that when it's bed time i can't fall asleep and i just stay up thinking about stupid shit. then i just become more angry/miserable. i came home from ( Read more... )

i'm going to end up telling this story to everyone anyways, so i might as well tell it once in detail here ( Read more... )

this may be a very typical thing to say, but i think jagged little pill may be my favorite CD ever.

last night i had a dream i was pregnant... this is the second dream i have like that in about a month. and both of the times the dreams have been INSANELY VIVID ( Read more... )