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failure
i wish i was the type of person who could just let things blow over, but i'm not. i dwell and dwell and at the end of the day, i blame myself for everything. for not being careful, for not putting people in their place, for letting myself believe things i knew weren't true. for letting opportunities pass me by, for not going after the things i ( Read more... ) -
uncultured swine
i hate when people try to school me on shit they know absolutely nothing about. i almost had a heart attack at work yday because this lady at my job was telling this other girl who's going on a trip that you can't fly directly to spain from miami, that you have to go through NY. first of all, you can fly to a decent number of european cities ( Read more... ) -
birth control
i started taking birth control earlier this week which has me crazy. the side effects are supposed to go away after a little while but i don't know if i can make it until then. luckily i do feel better today than yesterday. the nausea and headaches are unbearable and my contacts bother the shit out of me. my tits are huge and sore. on top of ( Read more... ) -
we can read each other's minds
the last couple of days i've been feeling bummed out about my grandma. mostly because i keep thinking about the fact that she died alone and in a lot of pain since her infection apparently didn't allow the doctors to sedate her. i'm doing a lot better now though despite the fact that i've come down with a terrible cold and have a sunburn from going ( Read more... ) -
rip abuela maria
my grandmother died only a few hours after i posted my previous entry. my dad's leaving to spain tomorrow for a little over a week for the funeral and to take care of everything else. i'm still super pissed that my mom chose to tell me over the phone while i was at publix with raquel buying stuff to make pizza and such for lost. i managed to keep ( Read more... ) -
grandmother
i know i've not always spoken fondly of her and that we have definitely had our differences, but abuela maria is very sick and it's had me in a gloomy mood for the past several days. tio fernando called this morning to tell us she had a really bad night and my dad is thinking she probably doesn't have a lot of time left. i'm also wondering if she ( Read more... ) -
the beginning of summer
i haven't really been in the mood to update this thing because i usually come here when i'm looking for a way to procrastinate or want to complain about something. since i'm not doing much of anything and life has been treating me fairly well, i haven't been compelled to post anything ( Read more... ) -
daily dose of catholicism
maybe it's because sister caroline drilled this into my head growing up but i must say i HATE when people wear rosary beads as necklaces. it's disrespectful and no one with any sort of brain actually thinks you look cool. -
i ran into david
just when i'm thinking about how shitty my life is because i'm up all night studying for an exam for a class i might need to retake, i'm reminded of just how much worse my life could be ( Read more... ) -
qbeez and finals
i have become insanely addicted to this stupid game qbeez. not that i ever want to become addicted to a game involving stupid blocks with british accents, but this could not have come at a worst time. i have 2 finals tomorrow and 2 next week. my ECP final will determine my summer's fate... whether or not i do well enough on the final to get a B ( Read more... )