I know I havent posted in for ever so SHUT IT. This week as been full of changes some good some bad. I started to talk to my Dad for the first time in almost 12 years this week. That is a good change it makes me somthing I seldom am happy. Shana well I almost ended things with her. I am sick of her messing up. But now she cant so I am still here. ( Read more... )

So yea Shana is happy ya. I hate the fact that I dont sleep much but still I dont bitch about it. Its all good I mean I been sleepy all day so I am ok. As long as me and Shana are ok I am. Jackson is going to get his ass killed. Brent is really pissing me off about going back to school. I will go back when ever the hell I feel like it I mean its my ( Read more... )

So ya not updated in a little so yea. Well me and Shana have had are ups and downs but that so not new. I love her and will alwas be there for her. I scared her one night after we had a argument I started breathing heavy and to tell the truth I dont know what was wrong. I have not been sleeping well at night but i sleep half the day away. I am ( Read more... )

So yea every thing is good and no I dont have a kid already. I love you Shana and I am happy we are happy. Happy a word so easy to say but when u feel it its bliss. The last time I posted I didnt know if I was going to be single or still with Shana but now I know I am with Shana and it looks like I will be for a vary vary long time. I do want us to ( Read more... )

OK so yea I was ready to die but Shana dont want me too so I wont even after I "did" something that never should have been doen and she still loves me That just makes me think better that we will make it past anything and Shana... I am so so so so so so so sorry I know that doesnt change it but I am and I love you so much. I know we cant change the ( Read more... )

So yea I need to die so bad. I am a asshole. I never thought I could be such of one but I am. Tonight kind of proved it. I wish I could start the next 24 ours over if I could I would change EVERYTHING. I know most the ppl reading this will agree with me by the time its read. I have thought things tonight that never should be. All I know is I need ( Read more... )

So yea this has been a fucked up day yet I dont know why. Me and Shana are really talking bout having a child now and thats ok I want one. I wish I knew why today was a bad day but idk. Well I really dont got nothin to say other then shana i love you and will talk to u later. bye bye

Hey so yeah Shana and I talked about it and I think we are going for a kid. I have always wanted one its just at first I didnt know what to think and now I think we should. It will have two loving parents. Shana when I said that I meant if when I see you and all if when you go home you don't have a kid in you I don't want you too be sad. Oh yea I ( Read more... )

Ok yea last night was I dont know. I love my g/f and she wants a kid NOW. I mean dont get me wrong I do to but I mean we are 16 and I stopped going to school already and we are like 2 hours away but I want a kid too so if we can work it out we will have one. Ok she got pissed because I smoked some weed yea I did tell her that I wouldnt but I mean ( Read more... )

yea so this is one fucked up day I dont know when how or what the fuck happened last night I was asleep so Shana fill me in later. I miss you baby. Man we had this storm that was a killer I mean not like me but The wind was at like 50, rained like fuck, and lightning was close. So yea got a call like 11 last night telling us there was a shooting at ( Read more... )