I NEED TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So yea I need to die so bad. I am a asshole. I never thought I could be such of one but I am. Tonight kind of proved it. I wish I could start the next 24 ours over if I could I would change EVERYTHING. I know most the ppl reading this will agree with me by the time its read. I have thought things tonight that never should be. All I know is I need to die and dont know if me and Shana will be ok I love her so much more then anything and would do anything for her but I pissed her off so bad. I am sorry Shana I know you are still pissed and crying but I cant say anything. If I could I would take it back but I cant. I dont feel that way and I do really love you well I am going and I dont know yet if I will make everyone happy and kill my self yet or not but if I do just know I love you shana and bye Dont miss me or feel bad its not you its me bye bye