Dear Diary, part eleven
September 30th
Dear Diary
I got a letter from Alfred today. You could've knocked me over with a feather! He wants to see the children. He wants me to take them to jail to visit him. I do NOT want to do that.
He then went on to say that he'd heard rumours that Nina was cheating on him, and he wanted me to let him know what I'd heard. I don't know why I should!
Apparently his father caught her in Don's arms again.
And now that she's starting to (finally!) show, she can't hide her pregnancy any more. Don's wife is still in the dark, but I guess that won't be for long. Gossip spreads very fast in this town.
Alfred said he knows that she's been drinking a lot, which isn't anything new, she's been a lush for years. But if she is pregnant, that's not good at all.
I hope she's not that stupid.
But with someone as self involved as Nina, you just never know. I have to wonder what she's planning on doing. Does she really think she can have this baby and not have any questions asked?
I don't want to take my children to see Alfred. There's no point taking babies to a jail! Maybe I'll just take Yolanda in. I don't know what to do, and Damon said that it's my choice. He's no help at all!
Z
October 1st
Dear Diary,
I took Yolanda to see Alfred today. I didn't want to, but his father begged me to.
I know that Alfred wasn't interested in seeing me.
I'm honestly surprised he was interested in seeing Yolanda.
I hadn't told her what he was in there for, I don't know what to tell her. I don't want to bad mouth him...but, he's done some despicable things.
I felt really awkward sitting there with him, knowing where we were, why he was there. But he and Yolanda got along really well, she was happy to chatter away about everything and anything, and he listened and it looked like he actually cared.
But knowing him, and remembering what that psychic said, I didn't buy it. I think I'll always be on edge around him.
But there was an officer sitting nearby, so I felt safe.
I couldn't look as they hugged, I didn't want to see it. I want her to be happy, that's all I care about.
And if that means she spends some time with him, well, I guess I'll have to let her. As long as he treats her right. If I get the slightest hint of his bad side, I'll take her away from him in a heartbeat.
Sometimes, I want to tell he what he did to me, why I don't like him.
But I don't feel it's my place to do that. I'm sure she'll figure it out by herself.
I'm not glad we went, but it was probably for the best.
Z.
October 26th
Dear Diary,
Oh my god, I can't believe this has happened. I don't know what to do. I'm crying so hard right now. I don't know whether to leave him or to forgive him or what. I know I don't want to be around him.
It's still quite early in the morning, but I got a phone call from Tamara not long ago. Last night, she had stopped for a coffee at this cafe in the park that she likes, and had met up with Dr Kimberly. They were sitting there, having a great chat, when she saw something that made her stomach drop.
She saw Damon kissing Marisa. She said they were all over each other. In public! Oh god, why??
She said she wanted to go over there and start laying into him, but Dr Kimberly talked her out of it. That way, they could see what was really going on.
Tamara said that Damon and Marisa looked like they were on a date, and that it wasn't their first. They went skating together, and they didn't even notice when Tamara was right near them.
Then, oh god this hurts. Then they did it...in public. I guess she's where he's been getting these ideas from. It was probably because of her that we did it in the photobooth. That makes me feel so sick.
I don't know how long it's been going on for, I'm not sure I want to know.
They were there until dawn, and Tamara was watching them. Once Marisa had slunk off home to her husband, Tamara approached Damon, and laid into him. He tried to fob her off, telling her she was imagining it, that he'd never do anything like that to me, and that I wouldn't believe it if she told me. He apparently smirked and walked away.
He came home and crept into bed, thinking that I was asleep.
But Tamara had already called me and told me everything. The kids were still asleep, and I didn't know what to do, so I went back to bed.
He fell asleep quickly, so obviously he doesn't feel bad about cheating on me.
But I couldn't stand being in the same bed as him.
I was...am...so confused. I don't know what to do. I already have one failed marriage. I have three children, with a fourth on the way. Should I leave him?? Should I kick his ass to the curb?? I haven't told him that I know. Should I do that??
Before I could even make it out of the bedroom...I fainted again.
And he didn't even notice! He was fast asleep. Probably dreaming of her.
When I came too, I could only hope that it was a bad dream.
But I knew that it wasn't. Yolanda had found me, and was standing over me, fretting.
Would it upset her too much if I left Damon?? I don't want to hurt her.
Z.
November 4th
Deary Diary,
I still haven't talked to Damon. I don't want to face him. I don't want to bring it up. I should be strong and kick him out, but now is not the right time. Especially now.
Last night, I went into labour. It was a few days early, but he didn't want to wait any longer.
Damon was home for it, which means a lot to me. Seeing as he was in a coma when I last gave birth, and this is his child, being able to share it will help heal us, I hope.
He called the nanny and then rushed me off to hospital, where my labour was a lot quicker and easier than I was expecting. I guess that fortune teller was right.
This morning we brought our son home, and we named him Vincent. Damon is thrilled to have a son. He says "another son", but I know it means a lot to him to have a child of his flesh and blood.
But once he was sure I was ok and we'd settled in...he left for "work".
I say "work", because I just don't know if it is or not.
But right now, I'm so entranced with my little man, that I'm going to let those issues sit to the side for now. I have four children now - FOUR! I need to be paying attention to them. They are my priority.
I just don't know what to do about Damon.
Z.
December 7th
Deary Diary,
I still haven't told him I know what he's been doing. I can't bring myself to do that. I know Tamara wasn't lying, but I don't think I should say anything just yet.
Last night, Damon took me out for an early anniversary dinner. He's meant to work on our anniversary, and with the twins birthday coming up, we decided to celebrate early.
He was very attentive, telling me how gorgeous I looked, how much he loved me, how glad he is that he married me.
But I couldn't believe it - she walked by! Did she know we were going there? Did he tell her? Did they organise it? I just don't know! They didn't speak to each other, but I found that more suspicious than if they had!
We went inside to wait for our table, and she was just loitering nearby. I felt like she was trying to rub my face in it.
I couldn't believe they'd be so obvious!
But, stupidly perhaps, I didn't let on that I knew anything was up. I know it's crazy, but I want this to work. I wanted to have a nice romantic meal.
Damon said and did all the right things, and to anyone watching, it would've been lovely.
But I couldn't help but feel he was trying too hard at times.
He insisted we get up and dance, and it was much easier now I'm not pregnant.
Maybe he was putting on a show for her, who knows, but, I'm almost ashamed to admit this, but I crave his love, his attention. I need to know that he wants me.
I couldn't believe what happened next, and I still can't. We were at the bar, having a drink after dinner, and it turned out that the man I was sitting next to was Marisa's husband! So now I don't know whether it was just a coincidence that she was there when we were, or if maybe it was planned, so that it'd be less suspicious because she was there with her husband! And just when I was trying to figure that out - in walked Nina and Don, and she was very obviously pregnant. There is no hiding that belly!
It seemed like they were flaunting their relationship. Though at that point, I guess you could've thought they were just two friends having dinner together. Though they WERE dressed up to the nines.
I know I shouldn't care so much what she's doing, I mean, it's Alfred she's married to. He's the one she'll be hurting. And this kid won't even be related to my kids. But...it infuriates me all the same.
Maybe it's the blatant cheating. Flaunting their infidelities in public like that. There was no mistake about their relationship at all.
And then she saw me, and immediately came over and started yelling at me! She was screaming about how Alfred thinks she's cheating on him, and she knows I went to see him, so it must've been me.
THAT confused me. I mean, hello? She's very obviously pregnant to someone who isn't her husband, and on dates in public with a married man! I don't know why she hates me so much, I was married to her husband when she started up with him! She has no moral ground to be standing on here. I suppose I can put it down to pregnancy hormones and her probably being drunk, but I'm just stunned.
I feel like I'm on some bizarre soap opera.
Zady.
December 20th
Dear Diary,
I now only have one baby in the house.
The twins are very much toddlers now! I can't believe how much they've grown. You think it'd be easier to believe, seeing as I've been through this before, but it's not.
Xander is such a happy little man, he's so interested in everything that's going on around him.
He and Damon have bonded so much, it is a joy to watch. Though watching Damon be so loving makes my heart hurt, so I end up feeling very confused most of the time.
Wanda is also very interested in things...but usually things she shouldn't be. She loves the toilet. Keeping her out of there is getting to be a struggle!
If she's not playing with the water in the toilet, she's splashing in the mess she made on the floor! She's a real handful.
But they play so well, together, and by themselves.
And Yolanda loves playing with them. She loves that they can do so much more now.
I love all of my little munchkins.
It's now been over a year since Damon was put into hospital, things have changed so much since then, and not all for the better. I'm going to talk to Damon about Marisa, and about us, I promise. But not until after Christmas.
I want to have a good Christmas this year. At least one, for the children.
Z
NOTES:
- Tamara and Dr Kimberly were two of the townies that arrived at the park when Damon and Marisa did! I love how that happens.
- Marisa and Connor turned up to the restaurant by themselves! I summoned Don and Nina in, but having the other two turn up made it all the juicier. She is indeed married to Connor Trouser, gen 2 spare, whose story will be up soon (along with Jared's).
- Neither Marisa or Damon were good at skating, so I couldn't get one of those romantic skating together shots, they just kept falling over. Tamara, on the other hand, was doing jumps and twirls all by herself. Show off! She also called Zady very soon after Damon got home. I laughed when that happened, because it was just so perfectly timed.
- The restaurant was Halloween Town, one I made in a challenge for simply_home, and is up for download, here is the original, as shown in the above link, or here for the version I use in game. The version I use has a larger stage for the DJ/dance floor, the edges of the stages have been painted (because I've only JUST figured out they could be, duh), and I took out the door to the staff room, because it wasn't an owned business. If you were to play it as a sim run business, just pop a door back in so the staff can access the staff room.
- I'll be doing a bloopers post soon, because quite a few amusing things have happened while I've played lately. Well, amusing to me, anyway! I won't be advertising that in any comms, it's a bit of a bonus post, I guess. Feel free to add this journal if you haven't already!
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