Dear Diary, part ten
April 1st
Dear Diary,
I'm not sure what's going on with Damon lately. He's thrilled about my pregnancy (even though I don't know how that happened! Ok, I know HOW it happens, but we were being careful!), and he's very loving towards me and the kids...but he's been spending more time online and on the phone, and working more. He says it's because there's a lot going on there, but I just get a strange vibe about it all. Maybe it's just me being silly because of what Alfred did, I don't know.
He did agree that getting a nanny was the best thing for us at the moment. He is adamant that I get plenty of bed rest. I don't like leaving the care of my children to someone else when I'm right there, but I can't do anything to risk this pregnancy.
I'm not sure I like this nanny. Kathryn, her name is. There's just something about her that makes me uneasy. I know she's been a nanny for years, and she comes highly recommended...but I'm just not totally at ease around her. Maybe it is just because I don't want to let someone else step in. I'm sure I'm just being silly.
I try to help out when I can, but she insists on me resting on the couch or in bed, not in the playroom. If she catches me coming in to there or the nursery too much, she'll lecture me!
I just wish I could put a finger on what it is about her that bugs me so much.
Taking it easy is SO boring. I find myself desperately hanging out for Damon to be home, but his hours are all over the place. There's some big Battle of the Bands coming up, and he's helping to organise it.
I just get so excited when he comes home! He doesn't let me do much around the house either - we have a MAID now! She comes over once a day to do what she can, and the nanny does the rest. But I'm not enjoying this! How crazy is that?
I know that Kathryn does a good job, from what I've seen when I've been "allowed" to get up.
The twins seem to like her a lot, but maybe that's just because she's feeding them! Oh, I miss that.
As long as she's taking care of them, I have nothing to worry about, I know.
It bugs me that I can't really check up on her...and I'm in the next room!
I can't imagine how torturous it would be if I had to work and leave the house as well.
Her resume was impeccable, so really, I should trust that, and her references.
But it's just hard to ignore my instincts like this.
Zady.
April 8th
Dear Diary,
Where has the time gone? It only seems like yesterday that Yolanda was a baby!
But the years have flown by, because now, she's definitely a baby no more. As if the other two babies in the house wouldn't prove that!
She's grown up so fast, so much faster than I thought possible.
She loves that I'm having another baby, too. She adores Xander and Wanda, but it's different now she's older.
She's able to interact with them in such different ways, and she loves to talk to my baby belly. I'm showing so much earlier this time around!
I'm making sure I spend plenty of time with her, as much as the nanny and Damon will allow me to. Sometimes it feels like they're in cahoots!
Alfred's father called tonight, but it was after Yolanda had gone to bed, so she didn't get to speak to him.
He did give me some very interesting news, though! He's been keeping in touch with Nina to get news about Alfred (because Alfred doesn't want his parents visiting him in prison), and he said he saw Nina and Don Lothario together!
He said he'd knocked but she hadn't answered. Because he could hear people talking, he let himself in.
He was too shocked to say anything, and they didn't know he was there!
I've heard from Kaylynn that Nina and Don used to be involved, before he married Cassandra Goth and before she married Alfred. It wouldn't surprise me if this isn't the first time they've been together since their marriages!
I always knew she was a no good tramp.
But that's not even the juiciest part of the gossip!
When Don went back again the next day, to try again (because he left very soon after realising what Nina was up to the first time), the situation pretty much repeated itself!
He could hear Nina inside, talking with trampy Don (there are too many Don's in this story!), but they didn't hear him, so he let himself in again.
He was very curious as to what they were talking about (he said he wanted to get as much information as he could before telling Alfred), and apparently Nina is pregnant! And not to her husband!
And then he heard her run through the house to the bathroom (which she'd redecorated as soon as Alfred was in jail) to throw up! So it's really true!
But he hung about in the hallway and heard Don talking about her morning sickness, even comparing it to what Cassandra was going through! Yes, his wife is pregnant too!
Apparently she's very upset about this, but from what Don overheard, she hasn't made any decisions about whether to keep it or not. Alfred may not be the smartest guy around, but even he can do simple maths, and work out that she got pregnant after he was locked up - especially if the baby has Don's colouring!
I can't believe she did this. How dumb do you have to be?? I'm tempted to go tell Alfred myself. Don (his father Don, not slutty Don) isn't sure whether he should tell Alfred himself or not. He feels Alfred has a right to know his wife is not only cheating on him, but pregnant to another man. But with Alfred in jail, it would be easy for Nina to take him for everything he has. How would he stop her from stripping the house and his bank account? Don decided to wait for a bit to see what Nina will do first, before telling Alfred.
He couldn't wait to tell me, though! He adores me, and his grandchildren.
This made my night, I swear.
Z.
August 14th
Dear Diary,
Things have been so busy around here!
With the baby on the way, the twins heading towards toddlerhood, and Yolanda wanting to try anything and everything, we've had to renovate. Yes! We put a second storey onto the house. I can't believe we've been able to do so much so quickly! It was a right pain to put up with while it was being done, but the workmen were professional and did a great job. We've added a second living area, another toilet, and an exercise room to upstairs. We turned the old exercise/hobby area into the playroom, and the old playroom into the new nursery! PHEW!
I wanted to have it all finished long before the baby got here, so we'd all be settled with it. I'm really happy with how it all turned out.
Things have been going very well with Damon. He did such an amazing job with the Battle of the Bands that they're going to promote him! He'll probably have to work long hours still, but he loves getting in there with the bands. He'll be helping to produce their albums now!
He still makes sure we have plenty of "us" time, and has been extra romantic to me lately. I get goosebumps just thinking of how wonderful THAT has been.
Yolanda has been an angel, too. She's so keen for school to start! She keeps badgering me to teach her new things, bringing in books for us to read together. I swear this child is some sort of prodigy!
I have been teaching her the violin, and she picked it up so quickly. I am really impressed with her talent. Most kids make horrible cat yowling noises for a long time, but thankfully, she got through that VERY quickly.
She and Damon have also gotten incredibly close. He taught her how to give electric shocks the other day, something I'm sure he now regrets.
Now she's forever scuffing her feet, ready to zap you! If you're not careful, you'll get a big zap!
But he finds it hilarious, and I think he's quite chuffed that she enjoys his sense of humour so much.
It just makes my heart melt to see how much they love each other, he's the only real father she's ever had. Alfred certainly wouldn't be as loving as Damon is, I'm sure of it.
I love my family so much. I'm so very blessed.
Zady.
August 29th
Dear Diary,
Tonight, Yolanda told me that she doesn't like the nanny. She tried to convince me that Kathryn wasn't really alive! Kids have such imaginative natures!
Maybe it's because school starts soon and she's scared, I'm not sure, but she said that sometimes Kathryn totally ignores them, and seems to freeze up, or something, where she won't respond to anything. When I asked her what she meant, Yolanda leant in close and whispered "I think she's a zombie!"
I told her she was being silly, that there were no such things as zombies, but she didn't believe me.
She also said that Kathryn seems to follow her everywhere, but doesn't try to talk to her. She called her creepy! I told her that a nanny is meant to take care of the kids, and if she goes outside, then the nanny should be watching to make sure she's ok.
I don't think Damon likes the nanny much either. I don't believe for a second that she's a zombie, but if the three of us get strange vibes from her, maybe I should rethink her employment with us.
Z.
September 12th
Dear Diary,
Last night, Damon and I had one of our rare nights out together. We got gussied up and headed to a new club, Opaline. People he works with strongly recommended we go, and I was feeling really well, so we decided we might as well go out.
We had a great time dancing, so I guess all that dancing about in my underwear at home really paid of.
I'm surprised I was able to dance so much, given how pregnant I am right now, but it was a lot of fun.
We had some wonderfully romantic moments, with lots of public displays of affection.
I did get a bit tired and dizzy after a while, so Damon suggested we get our photos taken.
They turned out incredibly well, and it made me realise that we really need to get some family portraits done.
Around then, I noticed this gorgeous blonde woman talking to Damon. He introduced her as Marisa Trouser, who used to be Mayor, and that they've known each other through his work. He knows the former Mayor! I felt so bad that I didn't recognise her, or even know her name. She laughed, and said that she did get married after finishing her term in office and took her husband's last name.
Damon and Marisa got on extremely well, almost TOO well for my comfort.
But I soon put that out of my mind, especially once Damon suggested we fool around in the photobooth. And...we did! I am still amazed that I did that. And there were people outside waiting for us to come out! I was so embarrassed, I didn't realise we were making that much noise, or that it was that obvious.
Old Mrs Crumplebottom was there, and she gave me a huge piece of her mind - using her purse to get the message through. How dare she!
I don't know where she gets off, attacking me like that. I can't believe she hit me. I'm thinking of pressing charges. Damon's said to let it go, but he wasn't the one who was attacked. And after what Alfred did, I'm hesitant to let any one get away with that.
Damon insisted we go outside for some cool air, and out there I met the most fascinating woman, Kitty, who said she was a psychic. She told me she was drawn to me, that I had a aura she couldn't resist. I thought she was full of it at first, but then she said that my mother was near, and couldn't wait for me to meet my son.
That floored me.
It made me pay more attention to her, and she started to tell me random things, like the baby would be healthy, very special, that he will come sooner than I expected, but not early.
And to beware of the man who'd been arrested.
She told me not to trust him, no matter what he said. She said he has a forked tongue, saying two things at once.
I was seriously creeped out by now, and just wanted to find Damon again. Marisa had been hanging around far too much for my liking. Famous or not, she was coming across as desperate for attention.
And then Nina showed up. Nina, of all people! She smirked at me, but didn't say much. I don't know if she knows that I know about her pregnancy. She wasn't showing at all - she must be one of those lucky women who don't show until the very end, when they just POP. Either that, or she had an abortion. I haven't heard more either way, so it's hard to know, and asking would just be rude.
But while Nina was smirking and gloating, Marisa had been moving in on Damon. She was blatantly flirting with him, and I was RIGHT there!
He was not happy when I stepped in and stopped her. He said that she would be good for his career, that if I was more supportive of him, I'd be encouraging him to network like that.
Networking shouldn't involve saying how awesome someone's ass looks in their pants!!
He was still annoyed at me, but he could see how pissed off I was, and he didn't want to ruin our evening, so he apologised profusely for being so thoughtless.
I didn't want it to spoil out, so I did my best to forgive him. After that, we decided we might as well head home.
He did make up for being so thoughtless once we were alone!
Z.
September 29th
Dear Diary,
I know I was feeling paranoid a few months ago, but now I really think something is going on. Damon's back to working longer hours, and when he's home, he's always on the phone. That wouldn't be so bad, but he takes the calls in another room, he deliberately leaves the room I'm in to have his conversation. He tells me that it's just confidential recording stuff, but I'm not so sure.
I should be enjoying this time so much more than I am. I'm sure this will be my last pregnancy, and I should be sharing it with my husband, but he's hardly ever home.
I spend more time with the creepy nanny than I do with him, these days! Ever since we went out the other week he's been really "busy" with work.
I think Yolanda has picked up on this tension between us. I noticed that she's started sleeping with her head under a pillow. This worries me, it really does. But when I asked her about it, she just shrugged and said it was more comfortable.
Damon does still make an effort with the children, which I know I should be eternally grateful for...but I wish he'd make more of an effort with me. I'm getting towards the end of my pregnancy, I've only got about a month left, and I'm just so tired of being so big and ungainly.
When I do see Damon, he is all about my baby belly. I'm sure many women would be thrilled with this.
But it's like he's forgotten me, that I'm attached to our child here.
I'm sure it's mostly hormonal, and seeing as I am so very, very, very pregnant, along with having three other children, plus the stresses of everything...I'm incredibly emotional.
I'm not sure how he puts up with my mood swings sometimes.
The other night, I was so upset about his behaviour, that I guess it affected my body. I thought I was going into labour!
I had contractions and everything, but they stopped after a while, so I guess it was just some Braxton-Hick's. They sure hurt like the real thing.
But it scared Damon, and he has been insisting that I follow the doctor's orders even more.
That didn't stop him from going out that night, though. I wish I knew what was going on.
Z
NOTES:
- Zombie nanny. Far too awesome for words, but SO HARD to work into a story like this. Eek!
- Even with cheats, Zady keeps bottoming out. I do not need her dying again!
- I have another update almost ready to go, so that will probably go up tomorrow sometime.
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