wow so  im totally drunk right now and i just realized that there is no one in the world that is thinking of me right now ( Read more... )

 does a dance party count as exercise if i was drinking coronas the whole time?

i was sweating my ass off in case that matters

geez

so just when i think that im getting ignored, he calls.

ready, heart? here we go again 

 so it goes that any time i have any hope in a man, he lets me down.

when will i learn?

 he just called he doesn't want to hang out ( Read more... )

 i just talked to a dear friend of mine on the phone for a while. he's one of the boys from my past who loved me while drunk and was "flattered... but..." while sober.  i swear they call to reel me in and keep me tempted forever.  i started telling him about this guy i am slightly seeing, and he comes at me with things that make me love him all ( Read more... )

 i'm in love with the prospect of what could happen... if only i didnt let everyone in right away...

but i suppose that if i didnt let everyone in, i wouldnt be ME.

i go by many nicknames:

action jackson, nana, auntie

tammy calls me auntie nana <3 ( Read more... )

 i might be in love?

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i am driving myself absolutely crazy.  i cant stop thinking about him.  i went thru my old LJ, reading entries from early 2003 when he and i were in love... scouring the internet for pictures of him, which i eventually found. when i saw his face my heart broke.  now i am sitting here paralyzed by the knowledge that i let him go.

i dreamed about him ( Read more... )