what i want out of this life (my dreams and daydreams)

- to be happy just being alive

- a loving partner to raise children with

thats it.

 when i get down about things, i get insomnia really really bad. my life is a total shithole at the moment ( Read more... )

seriously, what is it about me???

on friday i went to see my friend's rock band play. half my town was there, and of course it was at a bar so i was drinking... randomly saw my friend pat there... pat and i have known each other for like 6 years, hes part of the  whole west ma crew that ive been hanging out with forever...

we were talking, and i ( Read more... )

i went to see spiritual rez in boston last night, and while i didnt have a costume, i was semi dressed up... i have this dress that i bought from ebay and never wore, cause it shows WAY too much cleavage... and i wore makeup...

check me out:


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 what is it with boys? why do i gravitate towards the ones that i do ( Read more... )

it came to me today ( Read more... )

uuugh.  seriously, why does this happen ( Read more... )

i had no idea that i could feel SO alone. with every day and week that passes, the feeling snowballs.  only one of my friends has come over in the last week, and that was to borrow $20 so he could go out to the bar... and not invite me.

remi is oh so busy, between working 5 13 hour shifts a week, and teaching photography before his bar shifts. he's ( Read more... )

 well it looks as though i have a soft spot for men who dont mean what they say ( Read more... )

 living alone pretty much blows. i go entire days with out speaking out loud ( Read more... )