There are difficulties in becoming yourself, fully and truly. I've been living my life in the shadow of others for the past 5 years or so and I'm not sure how to break the pattern... the cycle. I've given priority to others in my life over myself. To a degree, I feel that's OK -- family and their needs are important. But I have done it to such a ( Read more... )

I’m participating in an ATC swap… that would be an artist trading card swap. Each artist takes a piece of paper, or cardboard, or some sort of material that is in the dimensions of 2 ½ x 3 ½ inches. The front is decorated as the artist sees fit, and on the back is written your name, date, title of the piece and number of the edition (if it’s more ( Read more... )

I haven't forgotten you. I haven't forgotten myself. But I've forgotten how to make time... to take time. To understand and realize it's not selfish to stop... just for me ( Read more... )

A few people have been asking me what I want for my birthday/ for Christmas. So I thought that I would take the pain in the arse-ness out of it and just post a list people can come to and reference. I’m posting it in a place where I can edit it and change it as time progresses, and where it can live permanently if people know where it is ( Read more... )

For those of you who are not familiar with what I'm about to rant about, I offer a little background. The province of New Brunswick (NB) has announced a deal to sell our provincial power utility to Hydro Quebec (HQ). This has caused quite an uproar with the people in NB and many people are questioning the soundness of it. The province is currently ( Read more... )

My emotions and depression is swinging like a pendulum these days. I have good days; I have bad days. The problem is the pendulum is starting to swing faster and wider. I need to find balance and center myself again. I'm so tired of being depressed ( Read more... )

Yesterday I drove mom to Halifax for an appointment. We hopped back and forth from the clinic to the hospital for Xrays and all that. It was nice to spend time with mom... we have a good connection and we had opportunity to talk ( Read more... )

Hmmm... today is turning into a dark day for me. I wonder if it's because I forgot to take my pill yesterday, or if it's because Michel and I had a discussion that turned argument that demonstrated our inability to communicate clearly ( Read more... )

I just remembered that I dreamed of crickets last night... the poor things were kept in cages and on display and in boxes to purchase and were almost lifeless. You had to bring life to them somehow... though I forget exactly how in the dream. I remember really struggling while I was trying to bring mine to life again. I also remember one of the ( Read more... )

I've finally managed to get in to therapy. The first session was me basically telling her why I thought I needed to be there, and then analyzing myself for her. She said I have a pretty good understanding of the way I work, that I've been through a lot, and that I need to re-program my brain a little ( Read more... )