I did it again. I blocked him. I couldn't do it any longer. I just don't understand what happened. We were so good in April. He was so nice and friendly to me. I don't even know what the hell happened to ruin that. 
So now I'm alone again. Thinking of all the good times he and I had together. I remember seeing him in gym class and instantly ( Read more... )

"'I will always be with you (until I go off to college)
I'm the anchor of your sorrow
There's no end to what I'll do (until I go to college)
Cause I love you' (until you see a prettier girl)
Love you to death by Kamelot 
5 months wow were did the time go? (down the drain, with our happy memories) Seems like it was just last week that I was sitting ( Read more... )

"'The things I want to say to you get lost before they come.' In between, Linkin Park.
It is'nt a sweet song infact its about a love built on lies. (Oh, like ours was built on? Like the fact that you actually never loved me to begin with?) But that line caught my attention. For every sweet thing I say there are one hundred I wish I did (you don't ( Read more... )

 "So I was up late at night cause well thats when I do my best thinking, right before I fall asleep. And I was wondering what a guy looks for in his prom date. Surprisingly I was able to come up with a few things. (very surprising indeed, considering your brain is the size of a walnut). Magnificent because she should be someone special. (guess I ( Read more... )

This is the first note he ever gave me. The blue will be the words he wrote. The red will be my editings on them. 
On this first note, he drew a picture of an angel an then wrote:
"I love you my angel. (me being his seventh angel....scumbag) You're the most beautifull girl in the world (until a prettier one comes along) and I'm lucky to be with you. ( Read more... )

He's gone. And he's never coming back. I should feel relieved but I dont, I feel very sad. I didn't want things to end like this. I didn't want us to hate each other like Mole and Kelsey. I wanted us to stay friends and hang out and be able to chill and talk like normal friends do. I thought I had that for a bit. But then I realized that he treated ( Read more... )

 So Jeff and I are talking again. And I dunno. I thought this entire week that he wasn't putting effort into the friendship. Then last night he was really nice and talkative and flirty. It was weird. I woke up this morning and assumed he was either drunk, high, or had just gotten laid when he talked to me. We talked again tonight and he was still ( Read more... )

So today we went to the beach and tanned because it was just so nice and warm. And then went to the sauna where I freaking roasted to death. It was way too hot in there for me. But I did a lot of thinking today about Jeff and I'm going to use this journal to compose a letter because I know he'll never read it or see it and I'm not gonna mail it to ( Read more... )

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