I know it has been awhile since I've updated this thing. I have no excuse like I've been busy, because we all know I'm wasting time on the computer playing geeky games like World of Warcraft and Tactical Ops. But I must admit that I have come to terms with my dorky self and am not ashamed that I like who I am. I'm different and quirky, but I'm ( Read more... )

So I've gotten worse at updating this journal, but maybe that's a good thing. I handle things on my own or I share them with other people. I'm growing up and learning to support myself and fix the things that need fixing with little to no help. I'm getting older and maybe a bit wiser. I feel good about myself and who I am. I think the only ( Read more... )

So another update, trying to get a bit more regular instead of popping on here every once in a blue moon, I am not doing well in class, I think I have a problem of caring, I'm hurting myself, and I'm wondering maybe I should just take a break, sure it'll be more expensive, but going and failing classes isn't a good idea either. I know I said I'd ( Read more... )

So yet again it has been forever since I've updated this thing. Maybe that is good, maybe it is bad. Honestly life has been going okay, there are always things that could be improved upon, but too much wishful thinking can make for a very depressing life when things don't go your way. Monica and I are still as close as always, my parents are ( Read more... )

What to say, its been so long, and so much stuff has happened that I don't really even know where to begin. I could spend hours updating everything that has happened since the last time I made an entry, or I could spend a few minutes talking about the week, but that would be boring ( Read more... )

I have been in a weird mood lately, to say the least. I have in my own way written some poetry, I guess you could call it that. But it's my feelings, and I am proud of them and want to save them so I am updating my journal to include them. I know I said a while back that I would update this, but I honestly don't feel like it, so maybe later, ( Read more... )

What can I say, it's been awhile since I've updated this thing. Life is always changing and sometimes I feel a bit lost, like I've been swept up and then dropped in some unknown territory, and slowly but surely, I'm tracking my way through it till I come out of the other end, which I am then again picked up and dropped off somewhere else. I guess ( Read more... )

So I told him finally. It wasn't as bad as I thought it could be. He doesn't want a relationship, which I can understand, he's been through a lot. Yeah it hurts to be rejected, but I put it out there, and if I hadn't, who knows if anything could have ever happened ( Read more... )

So I really was going to tell him I like him. I still plan on telling him, but when I called him last night he was out with some friends playing poker or something. I didn't think it was a good time, I rather him be alone when I tell him. So I didn't tell him, but we did for 6 minutes, which is 5 minutes longer than any other phone conversation ( Read more... )

So I talked to Suzanne today at work about my hang up on Andrew. From the conversation, I have decided to tell Andrew my feelings for him. I'm tired of never knowing, I'm tired of not having a relationship, and I'm sick and tired of having feelings for a guy and it never being reciprocated. I'm done. I'm through ( Read more... )