Update Update.
So I told him finally. It wasn't as bad as I thought it could be. He doesn't want a relationship, which I can understand, he's been through a lot. Yeah it hurts to be rejected, but I put it out there, and if I hadn't, who knows if anything could have ever happened.
I'm kind of glad I told him on AIM and not on the phone, because when I get upset my voice gets all husky, and it would be embarrassing. Thankfully I'm not crying, I want to cry, the ocassional tear escapes, but other than that I'm doing pretty good. I try to stay upbeat for his sake and for others. So I'm upbeat, hopefully I'll feel upbeat in an hour, because I'm leaving for Louisville. Monica has the alcohol and the transportation. Should be interesting. The nugs are staying at Hollye's, I'm sure it'll be fun, and something funny and interesting will happen. Our trip alone will be interesting, Nate is coming with us, he's gay. And we are going up early to eat somewhere nice, and go to the mall. I'm going to be good and not spend any money, unless I decide to get some stuff with the coupons I had from Bath & Body Works.
Until later!
I'm kind of glad I told him on AIM and not on the phone, because when I get upset my voice gets all husky, and it would be embarrassing. Thankfully I'm not crying, I want to cry, the ocassional tear escapes, but other than that I'm doing pretty good. I try to stay upbeat for his sake and for others. So I'm upbeat, hopefully I'll feel upbeat in an hour, because I'm leaving for Louisville. Monica has the alcohol and the transportation. Should be interesting. The nugs are staying at Hollye's, I'm sure it'll be fun, and something funny and interesting will happen. Our trip alone will be interesting, Nate is coming with us, he's gay. And we are going up early to eat somewhere nice, and go to the mall. I'm going to be good and not spend any money, unless I decide to get some stuff with the coupons I had from Bath & Body Works.
Until later!