Last night was bad. I have never been so unhappy with people and drinking. I wanted to go dancing really bad, coz well.. I love to go to the club and dance all night, Aileen and I got all dressed up, and Ginny was going over to her boyfriend's place. Well, she changed her mind, and wanted to go. This was exciting to me because she hardly ever wants ( Read more... )

I'm going to do something I shouldn't, but I need to be deviant for once in my life. I'm writting these short stories in a series that will be a novel called "Tales of Ten Smokers" about 10 different people with out of control lives. The one I am on right now is called Scarlet, who is a bisexual drug-addict who is sixteen, and beautiful. I'm really ( Read more... )

I know exactly what you are, and I don't like you. You are the perfect example of the atrociously villainous fuck I never want to be. My eyes are swelled with tears of hate. You have no feelings, none. You are a worthless, cheating, manipulating, imposing, lying, merciless bitch with more self-esteem than you deserve. The fact that everyone sees ( Read more... )

I am listening to Brand New, and some other random loud angry punk bands that I put on a cd this time last year.. when I was in a band. I really miss being in a band. I used to play drums, for hours, every wednesday with a few great girls who had just as much fun as I did. We rocked out, loud, raw, and we knew each other's moves like crazy.. ( Read more... )

Do you want to know what I did tonight? Do you care? No, no one cares, no one should care. No one reads this and if they do, they clicked my page by accident. Don't lie. I don't deserve to have my pages read by anyone, I'm meaningless and a huge waste so if you ARE reading this.. please... stop now. Save yourself. The past two days have been ( Read more... )

I wish I could meet people that understand me. I wish there was a hall that extended on forever. There would be a door with a big palm tree on it, and that would be mine. I would open it and there would be people in there that were a lot like me, they would understand me before I even opened my mouth to tell them my name. They would just already ( Read more... )

So, last night Ginny and I talked a lot of shit out. I feel a little better, but in a way not, because it's a reality I wasn't ready for yet. Do you ever feel like you reached a conclusion in life, and it makes you sad because it is over? Well, that is how I feel, not that our friendship is over, by any means, only that I know exactly how she feels ( Read more... )

Seriously. Why was I ever born? I'm so fucking pissed off about everything. I hate the fact that no one gives a good godamn about me, or anything that I care about. Not one fucking person likes me, or wants to hang out with me. I'm beginning to not blame them. I need help. I need a hug. I need someone to tell me something about me that is true, and ( Read more... )

Well I've just returned home from a very long spring break. It was enjoyable, and interesting, and here are some of the highlites ( Read more... )

It's raining, and that is not cool. I'm sort of feeling weird today, me and Ginny had a "talk" this morning. Sometimes I don't know why I am the way I am. I wish I could change so many things about myself, starting with my feelings on like.. well EVERYTHING. I wish I could just let myself be happy. No one cares about it anyway, I mean if I were to ( Read more... )