I'm at Hustler right now. Working. This is all I do. I can't wait to go back to college. Yeah, I really am excited. I never wanted to stop I guess, I just didn't feel comfortable at Eastern anymore. I feel a bit more on track now that I have plans for returning to higher education, hehe. My spirits are higher when I know what the fuck is going on. ( Read more... )

Did you ever feel like life dropped you off at a bus stop, and left without you. You stand watching everyone who once stood beside you, leave you forever. I feel like I am stopped. I am worried that I am stuck. I can't move, I can't even take a step forward. I just bought a car, so I suppose I really am stuck. I hate this feeling. Immovable. Will I ( Read more... )

The Summer has forged new life in broken hearts. The future is no longer a dreadful fear, but an open book, with gusty wind flipping each page with careful admiration. The whisping sand still calls me. The water, still crashing onto the shore, the prospect of life uninterruptedly lived in the west growing closer. Her hand still in mine. I will ( Read more... )

Well things are so rocky with my relationship, yes the one that I mentioned before.. in October. We've had our ups and downs as everyone should, but now a different key is being played. The thing is, I trust her, it took me a long time, but I do. Now that she finally has me on every level I feel like she wants to leave me, in fact I know it has ( Read more... )

I miss you. I miss all of you. It was unhealthy. I can't go back there. If you hadn't already noticed, it was the most miserable, terrible, and unrewarding experience of my life. If I had stayed, I would have jumped off a bridge. That is all ( Read more... )

My new pet, Darko, is an all black kitten will grow to be sleak, thin, with long ears and green ears. I love mah baaaby. I've found myself watching the olympics allllllooooooot, I love watching them, for many reasons. Well, I have four months to find an apartment in Southern California, or I have to spend the fucking winter in Illinois and try ( Read more... )

I really really wish I could take someone with me to California. I'm sick to death of many things these days. Moral, political, and financial issues. I'd love to completely rid myself of these tremendous travesties. God. I can't wait to seek refuge in the desert. In the ocean. In the fucking west. Being there these past 3 weeks has been the breath ( Read more... )

"All great art is a response to small minded corporate fascists, trying to impose their ignorance on the sheep like masses ( Read more... )

I was hoping for a zen-like day yesterday. I would wake up, drink orange juice, lay out, go swimming, do Thai chi, meditate, work-out, come home, relax, watch I love the 90s. Well, I'm pretty sure I woke up and watched I love the 90s all day. Man its a funny show though, oh yeah. I'm going to wake up tomorrow and get some things accomplished. I'm ( Read more... )

I am utterly consumed with writing this damn book of mine. It's almost like my mind has compelled me to make a deadline for it. The success of it will ultimately be derived from it's completion, as I tend to not finish alot of my written works. Alot of times I write poetry because it's quick, painless, and decadently expressive for me. Usually when ( Read more... )