I'm really not feeling well...my stomach hurts so bad I want to rip it out...and there’s a problem with my insurance so I can't get my new prescription...I don't want to go too work...I’ll have to do all that lifting and it makes it hurt more. I want to lie in bed but when I do I want to throw up...I’m scared and there is a big hole in me, I feel ( Read more... )

had the endoscopy...it was scary...and I was ok until it all started.. then tears were running down my face...I couldn't help it...I kept thinking about how much I wish Anthony could be there so I wouldn't be so scared. This thing was so long...it was so scary. The IV was awful cause they had me hooked up to something that took my blood pressure ( Read more... )

I don't think that my emails are reaching you.. so I’ll ask here...what are you thinking...how are you feeling...do you still want to talk to me...do you still want to be my friend, I'm not always nice...I’m not always rational, well seldomly rational...I say what I think when I think it and I seldomly reserve a second thought before I do, which ( Read more... )

I don't feel good...I think I might have the flu...I’ve hardly been able to keep anything down and I feel so sick to my stomach...of course it could be all mental too ( Read more... )

no one is allowed to say anything bad about Anthony...for any reason ( Read more... )

I hurt so much....I hurt physically, mentally, emotionally. oh and I have the added guilt that someone quit because I told them to leave me alone ( Read more... )

Thank you Megs and Jiggly...talking to you has helped a lot...thank you for making me laugh jigs, you brightened my day. Yeah cause your awesome thank you for being there for me, thanks for helping me ( Read more... )

MEGS!!!! I need you so much ( Read more... )

ok...so I said I would update...and I never did...well I’ve been swamped and that’s why...ok ( Read more... )

I’m home....had a wonderful time...long flight....got stuck in Seattle for like 2 hours....got home late....talked to ant for like 30 sec and promptly crashed for 3 hours....and since Tara and Lorraine aren’t coming I did some journal searching and I’m now preparing to crash for several hours....and yeah...lab at the permafrost tunnel...where it ( Read more... )