i need some glue...
I don't feel good...I think I might have the flu...I’ve hardly been able to keep anything down and I feel so sick to my stomach...of course it could be all mental too...
I just don't know what to do! I'm so frustrated! I'm trying so hard to just keep living...all I want to do is hide in my closet and cry. When I wake up I talk myself into being ok...convincing myself that it will all work out. Thinking that I really won't hurt forever, trying to keep in mind that I can still love him, it just needs to be a different kind of love. I know that if I could just accept that we're friends and not everything is going to change I'll be ok. But for some reason its so hard.
Megs~he's so not like Brent...and I don't know...I’m sorry I can't take your advise this time...I couldn't always take his advise either...I won't make the same mistakes I did last time.. don't worry, I promise, but I can't let him out of my life completely...please don't be mad at me for this...I’m really trying...I’m trying so hard.
and I’m sorry to everyone...I’m so up and down one would think I’m manic depressive...I’m having a really hard time keeping a rein on my emotions. I'm so sorry if I say anything to that ends up offending anyone...please tell me if I do.
my body hurts so bad! I feel like someone has nail guns and they are shooting me with spikes so rapidly that it feels as if there is no break. My back is so sore...like I slept with an elbow in my back all night...and I know my teddy bears don't have elbows. And my eyes are going to fall out of my head...and I’m so sick of having to listen to crappy country at work, too many songs make me cry...and the whininess makes my head hurt...ok I’m going to stop because this is doing no good...just every inch of me is sore and that doesn't help any...well nearly every inch
I just want my heart to stop hurting...I want it to work like my head...if it would just listen to my brain I'd be ok...but I suppose its a good thing in the end that the brain isn't in control of the heart or the world would be in a bunch of trouble...
Ok...ok...I’m going to be ok...for the moment
I just don't know what to do! I'm so frustrated! I'm trying so hard to just keep living...all I want to do is hide in my closet and cry. When I wake up I talk myself into being ok...convincing myself that it will all work out. Thinking that I really won't hurt forever, trying to keep in mind that I can still love him, it just needs to be a different kind of love. I know that if I could just accept that we're friends and not everything is going to change I'll be ok. But for some reason its so hard.
Megs~he's so not like Brent...and I don't know...I’m sorry I can't take your advise this time...I couldn't always take his advise either...I won't make the same mistakes I did last time.. don't worry, I promise, but I can't let him out of my life completely...please don't be mad at me for this...I’m really trying...I’m trying so hard.
and I’m sorry to everyone...I’m so up and down one would think I’m manic depressive...I’m having a really hard time keeping a rein on my emotions. I'm so sorry if I say anything to that ends up offending anyone...please tell me if I do.
my body hurts so bad! I feel like someone has nail guns and they are shooting me with spikes so rapidly that it feels as if there is no break. My back is so sore...like I slept with an elbow in my back all night...and I know my teddy bears don't have elbows. And my eyes are going to fall out of my head...and I’m so sick of having to listen to crappy country at work, too many songs make me cry...and the whininess makes my head hurt...ok I’m going to stop because this is doing no good...just every inch of me is sore and that doesn't help any...well nearly every inch
I just want my heart to stop hurting...I want it to work like my head...if it would just listen to my brain I'd be ok...but I suppose its a good thing in the end that the brain isn't in control of the heart or the world would be in a bunch of trouble...
Ok...ok...I’m going to be ok...for the moment