Its just a different kind of love right? still love, just different right?
no one is allowed to say anything bad about Anthony...for any reason!
So I guess when you think about it there really isn't that much difference between friends and boyfriends right...just no intimacy...and friends still crash with one another from time to time even...well depending if they are single or not cause significant others would not like that. Friends still hang out...friends go to dinner and movie right together and still play pool and even some chess? Friends still talk...you just don't make family's with friends right? So I can do this...I just need to learn to love him differently...that’s all right? I don't reallly lose him completely and forever right? He'll still be there when I need to cry like all of my other friends right...we can still laugh together...we can still go climb the wall right? Friends still go dancing right...even when they are afraid to dance friends are supposed to drag everyone onto the dance floor and be foolish together right? And friends still try and get other friends to run right? Its just a different kind of love right? After all I love all of my friends a lot...I’d do anything for them...I’m just not wanting to marry them...its just a different kind of love right? I can learn to love him differently right? He doesn't have to be gone forever right?
I have a dr appt tomorrow morning...I hate dr's they scare me on the plus side...I’ve lost 10lbs according to my scale which I have to make sure isn't reading funny...I think I have an unopened bag of sugar somewhere...and if I don't move my but I’m going to be late for work...
thank you for listening to me...I know I don't make sense and my emotions swing from one side to the next...I’m just trying to make sense of everything...I’m trying to find my ground....I’m trying I really am...
thank you for everything Anthony, the fifteen, nearly fourteen months were great...maybe we can make more good months.. maybe just differently...
So I guess when you think about it there really isn't that much difference between friends and boyfriends right...just no intimacy...and friends still crash with one another from time to time even...well depending if they are single or not cause significant others would not like that. Friends still hang out...friends go to dinner and movie right together and still play pool and even some chess? Friends still talk...you just don't make family's with friends right? So I can do this...I just need to learn to love him differently...that’s all right? I don't reallly lose him completely and forever right? He'll still be there when I need to cry like all of my other friends right...we can still laugh together...we can still go climb the wall right? Friends still go dancing right...even when they are afraid to dance friends are supposed to drag everyone onto the dance floor and be foolish together right? And friends still try and get other friends to run right? Its just a different kind of love right? After all I love all of my friends a lot...I’d do anything for them...I’m just not wanting to marry them...its just a different kind of love right? I can learn to love him differently right? He doesn't have to be gone forever right?
I have a dr appt tomorrow morning...I hate dr's they scare me on the plus side...I’ve lost 10lbs according to my scale which I have to make sure isn't reading funny...I think I have an unopened bag of sugar somewhere...and if I don't move my but I’m going to be late for work...
thank you for listening to me...I know I don't make sense and my emotions swing from one side to the next...I’m just trying to make sense of everything...I’m trying to find my ground....I’m trying I really am...
thank you for everything Anthony, the fifteen, nearly fourteen months were great...maybe we can make more good months.. maybe just differently...