I've been sitting here figuring out how to start this entry. I guess just dive right into lastnight would be a start ( Read more... )

Well, since I last wrote here in my dear online diary things have been looking slightly up. Well, up in one aspect of my life anyway. I still have alot of jumbled emotions, doubts, fears, the whole nine yards.. but that's life. What can you do but take things as they are thrown at you. This growing up business is tough work, and I'm not very ( Read more... )

I hate writing here. I want to put this damn thing private so no one will ever read it. Whatever. The whole reason I think I write here is so people WILL read it. I hate this place I'm in. I don't mean that as in North Carolina. I love it here, I really do. I hate where I am mentally. Emotionally. Torn and tattered like one of my dad's old ( Read more... )

Hate me. Go ahead. Does that make you feel better? I hope so. I bet you replay that day at the coffee shop over and over again. You do, don't you? You smile to yourself for the first 200 times that it cycles through your head. Your smile fades when you remember that I said nothing the entire time. You always loved my eyes. How did they look ( Read more... )

The worst feeling is feeling like you've accomplished nothing ( Read more... )

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Yes yes, it has def been awhile since I have typed up an entry. Actually, I probably would not even be writing in here if it were not for Eleanor complaining how I have not entertained her with an entry. Funny thing, I'm in North Carolina right now. Go figure. I was supposed to leave yesterday. Why am I not surprised that my departure time has ( Read more... )

Words from a friend... thank you. This means so much. Just...thank you ( Read more... )

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Ah shit. I'm still sick! I haven't been too active due to the fact that I've been laid up in bed for the past few days. I'm starting to feel a little bit better so hopefully what ever I have is almost done running it's course. Unfortunately I think I gave it to mom now. Oops ( Read more... )