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Words from a friend... thank you. This means so much. Just...thank you.
v-bo , I just want u to know that I think u are amazing. I heard about sum of the things going on in ur life right now and the battles u facing. Word travels fast as I'm sure u know. We know it is hard for u to deal with what's been going on... we've seen you at ur worst but lately we've been seeing u at ur best despite the bad things that have been goign on. Flaws can be changed.. and we all see that u have been working haard on fixing them. We all see a different side of u now. That something that stood out before is now coming through even more so. We're praying for u. We believe in u. We're proud of u. Don't forget that. Please. That strong person in you is there. It has never left. It has only been overshadowed by ur doubts and fears. Hold on to ur faith. Hold on to ur hope. Hold on to ur dreams. Those stars u aimed for are still there waiting for u. We have seen u focus on ur strength and along with the awesome power of our Lord I know that the best will come ur way. Strength, determination, dedication, and prayer our ur keys. Hold them close. Those are the tools I remember u having. Those are the tools u must depend on. Those are the tools that will push u to accomplish everything u want and desire. Good luck to u.. and know that u have our prayers. May only the best come ur way.
~Through darkness the light of the heavenly Father will cast away your fears. Through faith may you yet again be reborn~
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It's been so long hasn't it? I've learned that through self discovery comes pain. I've seen that even through the loss of another, a part of you goes with that. I've had so many losses that more of me feels empty. My independence both strengthens and weakens me in ways I had never noticed before. Jealousy.. insecurity.. doubting... all trends of the past several months. To add loss only adds more void. Void filled with anger, hurt, distrust... self distruction. Sometimes I sit back and wonder why I even go on with this. I'm too proud though. I will work. Work to better myself even more. Work to understand myself and cast out the negativity built up from so many years of guilt and anguish. I will learn to trust others and hope that I will recieve the same. I'm not the same person I was. I would never choose to go back to that. Knowing you are a time bomb is knowing that at any moment everthing you ever had, wanted, and strived for will be worth nothing. I am more than that, whether other believe that or not. I now understand. "stive".. "strong"... those are there on my hands for a reason. It's time to follow through with my unfinished business. Help or no help.
PEACE
Vanessa
v-bo , I just want u to know that I think u are amazing. I heard about sum of the things going on in ur life right now and the battles u facing. Word travels fast as I'm sure u know. We know it is hard for u to deal with what's been going on... we've seen you at ur worst but lately we've been seeing u at ur best despite the bad things that have been goign on. Flaws can be changed.. and we all see that u have been working haard on fixing them. We all see a different side of u now. That something that stood out before is now coming through even more so. We're praying for u. We believe in u. We're proud of u. Don't forget that. Please. That strong person in you is there. It has never left. It has only been overshadowed by ur doubts and fears. Hold on to ur faith. Hold on to ur hope. Hold on to ur dreams. Those stars u aimed for are still there waiting for u. We have seen u focus on ur strength and along with the awesome power of our Lord I know that the best will come ur way. Strength, determination, dedication, and prayer our ur keys. Hold them close. Those are the tools I remember u having. Those are the tools u must depend on. Those are the tools that will push u to accomplish everything u want and desire. Good luck to u.. and know that u have our prayers. May only the best come ur way.
~Through darkness the light of the heavenly Father will cast away your fears. Through faith may you yet again be reborn~
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It's been so long hasn't it? I've learned that through self discovery comes pain. I've seen that even through the loss of another, a part of you goes with that. I've had so many losses that more of me feels empty. My independence both strengthens and weakens me in ways I had never noticed before. Jealousy.. insecurity.. doubting... all trends of the past several months. To add loss only adds more void. Void filled with anger, hurt, distrust... self distruction. Sometimes I sit back and wonder why I even go on with this. I'm too proud though. I will work. Work to better myself even more. Work to understand myself and cast out the negativity built up from so many years of guilt and anguish. I will learn to trust others and hope that I will recieve the same. I'm not the same person I was. I would never choose to go back to that. Knowing you are a time bomb is knowing that at any moment everthing you ever had, wanted, and strived for will be worth nothing. I am more than that, whether other believe that or not. I now understand. "stive".. "strong"... those are there on my hands for a reason. It's time to follow through with my unfinished business. Help or no help.
PEACE
Vanessa