oh my fucking god. THANK YOU!!! acting class was awesome. today was pretty much the best day of my life. i can finally breathe. and although i havent gotten over him. him as in the guy i like, its ok. it will ALL be OK.

I CANT GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD. I CANT GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD! GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD!! GGGGRRRR. MAN THAT SUCKS. IM SO FUCKING INSECURE. THERE I SAID IT. I HAVE REALIZED THAT NO ONE WILL EVER READ THIS SO I CAN PUT WHAT EVER SHIT I WANT TO PUT ON HERE. IM FUCKING INSECURE. I HAVE SELF COFIDENCE BUT I CANT GET IT OUT. LIKE I KNOW I CAN DO SOMETHING ( Read more... )

today was a blurr. i have to take a deep breath. i think im losing myself. im becoming someone im not. i dont know who i am anymore. ive lost my identity ( Read more... )

why?
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!
WHY DOES LIFE HAVE TO BE SO DAMN COMPLICATED.
WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO DAMN COMPLICATED AND MAKE MY LIFE COMPLICATED. WHY THE HELL.

SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT.

*SIGH*

THERES THIS GUY THAT GOES TO MY SCHOOL AND I REALLY.... REALLY LIKE HIM. AND...WELL....I DONT WANT ( Read more... )

my head hurts ( Read more... )

damn it!!! ahhh. shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shti shtis htishtishtist htishishtishtishtisthisthsithishtsihs thisthisthsithisthsithisht hits this shit. ahahahahaha. you can spell this and shit with the same four letters!! haha!! and you can spell ah! and ha! with the same letters too!! hahahaha!! damnit. im fucking crazy right now i ( Read more... )

i dont know what it is.

its a feeling that i hate.

and i cant let it go.

i hate it i hate it i hate it!!

i hate that feeling when u have something wrong. theres something wrong inside of u and u long for someone to come and help u but the truth is that ur in htis world alone.

ive tried to depend on other people for so long to help me release all the ( Read more... )

i miss my dad. i want to see him. i know i didnt grow up with hum but i love him so much. i cry for him. why do i miss him damn it. i wish my life didnt suck like it does. i wish i could come home and be able to hug my dad. i wish i can say my family is complete but its not its missing a piece. or maybe its just me. i thihnk i feel like that. i ( Read more... )

well...... *sigh* where do i start damn it. i wish all my thoughts could just easily be transferred from my mind right on to here but they cant and its hard just sorting them all out. i have mixed emotions i cant exactly say what im feeling. like..... ugh ( Read more... )

why do i feel the need to fit in. im like fighting with myself. i feel like i NEED for everyone to like me so i can feel better but i know its not supposed to be like that damn it.