I have been incredibly awful with updating lately.  I keep remembering that I need to, but then forgetting about 5 minutes later, or being too lazy ( Read more... )

You know, I'm really tired of coming home and crying about lab.  I can't do anything right, I mess stuff up, I forget things, I panic, my anxiety is sky-high, and all this results in a lovely positive-feedback loop.  In addition to figuring out that I messed up a reagent I needed for this experiment Sandro really wants me to do (for his grant, ( Read more... )

I actually had a good meeting with my counselor yesterday... I feel weird talking about this online, but I feel it's worth mentioning.  I started with how I felt as though I've made no progress, and basically called myself lazy when she came up with a better term- apathetic.  Stopping to think about it, yes, I am incredibly apathetic about pretty ( Read more... )

I had a good, if not brief, chat with Michelle on the bus to lab this morning.  It seems that she is having a lot (but not all, I suspect) of the same issues that I am having about lab stuff.  Apparently she was talking to Bart about how she just wants to know what needs to be done to get out of here, to see a light at the end, and he seemed ( Read more... )

Other noteworthy things experienced during Thanksgiving break included puppies!  Robert's parents have been looking for a new dog ever since theirs passed away, and on a whim us 3 Leslie gals went to see some springer and cavalier spaniel puppies.  Sooo much cuteness (and so many dogs!!).  You just can't go wrong with playing with puppies.  I don't ( Read more... )

I got quite a shock in lab today.  I was at David's defense (which was really good, of course) and he was fielding questions at the end, and he got one about the regulation of our protein.  He started saying well Bisello's lab and so-and-so's lab have found such and such... I let it pass over my head and it didn't really register until I went back ( Read more... )

I am so terrible at updating.  Possibly because I only have scattered instances worth writing about, so I forget.  I guess most importantly I held my first thesis committee meeting on Friday.  I hate that it wasn't until 3, since then I spent the ENTIRE DAY fretting over it. Anyway, it ended up going pretty well I think, it reminded me a lot of ( Read more... )

Halloween:  Didn't really do much, not even a haunted house because I don't think Robert wanted to.  I told him he owes me one (or two!) next year, haha.  We bought candy for ourselves because I like feeling included if I can't go trick or treat.  Plus chocolate is  yummy (although I think the excess I've been eating is the cause for my heartburn ( Read more... )

In retrospect, last weekend's conference was pretty boring.  I guess it's good that I went, but there was only 40 people there (I counted) and it was mostly a PI discussion.  They may have been using mostly the same cell systems as me, but weren't doing anything related to my area.  It's like, oh heeey we use the same cells!  Yawn.  At least the ( Read more... )

Today seemed to be another waste of a day.  I was excited sort of because it was the BGSA Symposium and 1) that meant no lab work today and 2) I was looking forward to the student speakers.  Well, I woke up this morning and felt a potential migraine coming on since my vision felt weird (no aura, just weird), so I took an Excedrin.  I got more and ( Read more... )