I dont get why I feel like this I know better I know better than to allow my feelings to get involved....but I still allow it I still enable the behavior...why not give up?!? Why continue to hurt over and over?!? Do I just look past it cause I think life will be easier if I keep my mouth shut....im no longer living that life its ok to let go and ( Read more... )

i dont get how someone can fucking talk all this shit to and about me on fucking facebook! u say u just wanna talk about nigga guess what ur talking to the wrong mother fuckin people! im through with u! my hands are clean of all u have to give me i hate u! i hate you to the point that i wanna fucking take the shirt u gave me along with the shit i ( Read more... )

I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH IN THE LAST 2YRS ITS REDICULOUS I DONT KNOW HOW I LET MY LIFE FALL SO FAR BETWEEN MY FINGERS I WASNT ABLE TO CATCH MYSELF BEFORE I HIT ROCK BOTTOM. YES I HIT ROCK BOTTOM, TO YOU AND YOU AND MAYBE EVEN YOU I WASNT AT ROCK BOTTOM DIRT POOR OR STRUNG OUT ON DRUGS(AS FAR AS U KNOW)BUT I WAS AT MY LOWEST POINT IN MY LIFE. I ( Read more... )

I DONT KNOW WHAT HAS POSSED ME TO COME HERE TODAY AND VENT MAYBE ITS CAUSE I KNOW ALL OF U WHO HAVE MYSPACE READ BLOGS AND I DONT WANT ALL THEM TO READ THIS...OR MAYBE I DO! I FUCKING SAD YES ITS TRU ANDIE IS FUCKING DEPRESSED. YOU ARE ALL THINKING WHY SHE HAS IT O SO GOOD...SOMEONE WHO SAYS HE CARES YET HE IS MILES FROM WHERE U STAY.FUNNY...I HAVE ( Read more... )

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ok so when this pill does finally make my period come...it fuckin makes me sooo sad! like i wanna be back in middle school and thinkin about dying again!takin the razor and runnin it across my wrist! what is it...someone please tell me...i have fuckin pimples all over my face right now cause im lame...i dont wanna talk to anyone but "YOU" i know ( Read more... )

So yea i think im stressin way too much! So many things are going on with my life right now its like i dont know where to begin or what things to take care of first!

i dont know what to do to stop stressin! Blah...i really care about u and i dont want to! hahaha how funny is that! i like our friendship! it really is a nice one! but i know you dont ( Read more... )

thoughts of death cross my mind!

why?!?

go away!!! please...

you've fucked up my life before...

go away!!!!

just to get a razor and slit my wrist one more...or my leg and calling it a fall! bleed mother fucker bleed...die and all is ok...all is good...no more problems!

Ok so i have to admit...i have lied to my mom before...and her just finding out things she didnt want to find out doesnt help the situation! well yea so today...im gone for like an hour and a half and didnt call its like what the...Dood...im ok...i can take care of myself! now that im back i dont even wanna look at her or talk to her for that ( Read more... )