Drawn up by some sleepless nights of existential dread i find myself turning back to my old means of self therapy.

here we are: hours shy of 16 months sober with the legal troubles that pushed me that way on my heels and nearly over the horizon. I'm regaining many shreds of my identity before all the partying, the desire to be liked by everyone ( Read more... )

It's unusual for me to stay up so late. The fire still burns in the stove, and kit's alarm clock has probably gone off at an ill time just now. I'm happy that I have an irregular journal to come back to. It keeps a helpful read on my life's pulse even though it no longer feels how it used to ( Read more... )

much older now, can't say ive learned from all my mistakes but i try har and give them the bennefit of the doubt. i drink quite a bit these days. much more than an average person. i've read that there are two groups that drink more than service industry folks. they are construction workers, and miners (mostly for coal im guessing). i guess i do a ( Read more... )

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tomorrow i embark for the south west. God i hate flying.

dear our economy,

fuck you

-rob

jesus incorporated is threatening to fire me.
they're trimming the fat.
there's no more coming in late not even by 5 minutes.
there's no more security.
there's no apparent "love of christ"

i drank a 40 and cried on the floor of my living room today. too desensitized to completely understand why exactly i feel like this.

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"...and still play rock and roll"

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today i rented a 2008 harley davidson ultra classic. a very large and heavy american touring cycle. i took my dad as a passenger over 200 miles of new mexico's cities and countryside.
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