im going on day four here in albequerque. it's surreal visiting your parents across the country, sort of like visiting your grandparents. you fly into an alien land, sleep in an alien bed, and you're essentially a tourist among family. very wired. today we took mom's convertible up through a beautiful state park north of here to one of many quirky ( Read more... )

dear God ( Read more... )

im getting closer to the answer of my metaphysical/ philosophical/ identity question. my overall perception has zoomed out a little more. i suppose you could say im becoming one of those "zen dudes". im wandering through that transitional period of mental breakdowns and sleep deprivation but i'll come out the otherside with much more acceptance, ( Read more... )

a leap in the right direction? probably not ( Read more... )

this is a new day. it's the first time i can remember feeling that. i arose late and low on sleep but with enough optomism. i had to ask myself last night "am i in control, who's really at the helm of this ship ( Read more... )

it's late. work is in only a few hours and im sleepless and scared of the unfolding months. i feel like my sense of creative identity is lost in my daily hustle of work, drink, sleep repeat. im off declaring my identity through playing songs i wrote years ago or playing songs i didn't write at all. it's like the creative engine in me broke down and ( Read more... )

im drunk and angry at this point. i talked to none other than the kid i led vacation bible school for. all about spirituality, theology, how the world works vs. how our church works. it's both refreshing and obnoxious to hear from another old schooler ( Read more... )

this weekend drove me to the bone, friday my sister and i rode the motorbike to the danbury fair mall fireworks. it was neat to have to abillity to weave in and out between the jammed traffic. it brought my ego to a new level of "the vehicular elite ( Read more... )

hey did you see boondock saints ( Read more... )

it's quite like this ( Read more... )