I made a painful decision to leave the company just after hiring M, a friend. I let him know just before so he could back out, but he decided he wanted to try it. I understood because the technology is very interesting. Even though the job was highly stressful, I was having a great time. You had to be there, but it was an unreasonable situation ( Read more... )

I wound up staying in Miami one more day to finish up some the code. I suspect that I will not be going back. That job is mostly done and there is not a piece big enough for me to take on, so mostly maintenance might be left, but only a few hour maybe a day I’ll start digging in looking for something else today ( Read more... )

This feeling in the gut keeps coming up or pulling me in. Terror, I guess. Terror that I can’t keep it together. Part of it is that the day has not been productive. I went out to get some things done, and things took too long. I have to get some code done by Sunday when I fly to Florida on this new contract. It's going to be a busy weekend. ( Read more... )

I feel it coming up right now. I am loaded with uncertainty at the moment. I am about to call into a conference call that represents the real start of the new contract, but it is not quite a done deal, and I don’t know how many hours I will get from it. They will pay at a good rate, but there is some possibility I will need to go get some ( Read more... )

Intense night on the phone at SACS ( Read more... )

Let me set the stage. My daughter came to me last night in tears. “I don’t want you and mommy to get a divorce.” Her mother angry with me had said something about divorce to her. There had been a painful dialog between mother and daughter about telling lies. I had intervened, a real no-no, by asking my daughter if she was afraid. When I did ( Read more... )

It was looking bleak. I am going to take off a week and start on a consulting contract. If things look good with it, I may just blow off the job. In the meanwhile, I will look at other options.

I'm sure I'll say more about this later, but I have no time now.

r.slime

Note to self: If you interview at a company that has a weekly meeting with a name that has anything to do with war, conflict, carnage, etc., run ( Read more... )

I wouldn’t know about that, I’ve only been here three months ( Read more... )

I’m doing too much I and I have a hard time getting to the writing I want to do ( Read more... )