Maybe. I think so. If I can come back to sanity there is some hope. The seminar on relationship seems to have turned us around. Part of me fears that it is just the seesaw we have been on, and the financial issues still loom, but I have this contract and with sanity, in the rest of my life I will execute it fine; then we will see ( Read more... )

It feels like it. She is so distant, and I cannot seem to reach her to make any contact. I can’t imagine what it is like to want distance like that. Even when I knew I wanted out of a relationship I never felt that kind of distance. When I left my first wife I had to learn to keep a great distance because she would violate my boundaries. I am ( Read more... )

To have and to hold, in sickness and heath, in ( Read more... )

That is the word we are using again. Once again she said she wants a divorce and this time (I think for the second time) I said fine, let's get divorced. It does not feel good but I can’t keep at this up and down shit ( Read more... )

Let me set the stage. My daughter came to me last night in tears. “I don’t want you and mommy to get a divorce.” Her mother angry with me had said something about divorce to her. There had been a painful dialog between mother and daughter about telling lies. I had intervened, a real no-no, by asking my daughter if she was afraid. When I did ( Read more... )

That’s the message from my wife today.

Do I believe it? Maybe. Do I welcome it? Maybe.

There is sadness, but not remorse. Mostly, there is thought about how to support the daughter through it, if it happens.

Love ya honey - it is a sad day for a sad cause. Sorry to see your blog erased again - what’s that about?

r.slime

Something has changed in me that is profound. There is a space and a peace that is there all the time and accessible. I should really say that the resistance to being there is no longer what it was. I can go to that place, be in its power now instead of mine. I make it sound too big here in some sense, but it is not about believing or thinking, ( Read more... )

My identity is tied very much into the idea that I am a married man. While I may look at other women, I don’t really flirt. I guess the closest I have come to actually flirting is with K, and that I am sure she would testify that it was not much ( Read more... )

My wife has always worn sexy underwear but recently has begun to wear thongs and other thin and small pieces. These are all high-quality panties. I am surprised at my response to these - they turn me on in ways I would not have expected. To be sure, I like seeing them -- they are great eye candy. But, what surprises me is that I like touching ( Read more... )

I’m torn up. I can tell because I truly want to run away into some other woman’s arms. I feel like I am losing my soul mate. Why are we splitting? Because neither of can understand the measure of the other. It is as if we each live in the other’s negative space. I wonder how this can be. It is as if her mere existence confirms the holy and ( Read more... )